fall out boy with i don't care.
omg pete wentz's hot but he's got her and little him already, what's with marriage and babies.
anyway, kind of noisy in a way, but th words are oh-so difficult to understand, im still digesting it now.
do not disturb.

Say my name, and his in the same breath,
I dare you to say they taste the same,
Let the leaves fall off in the summer
And let December glow in flames

Brace myself and let go,
Start it over again in Mexico
These friends, they don't love you
They just love the hotel suites, now

I don't care what you think
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

I don't care what you think
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

Oh, take a chance, let your body get a tolerance,
I'm not a chance, but a heat wave in your pants
Pull a breath like another cigarette,
pawn shop, I'm trading up (trading up)

I'm the oracle in my chest,
Let the guitar scream like a fascist,
Sweat it out, shut your mouth,
Free love on the streets, but
In the alley and I ain't that cheap, now

I don't care what you think,
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

I don't care what you think,
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

Said-a, I don't care just a-what you think,
As long as it's about me, you said-a
I don't care just what you think,
As long as it's about me, you said-a
I don't care (I don't care)
You said I don't care (I don't care)
Said I don't care, I don't care
I don't care (I don't care), I said-a I don't care

I don't care what you think,
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

I don't care what you think,
As long as it's about me
The best of us can find happiness
In misery

wanted to hear it for th last time but it never came

oh i remembered what i was going to say just now,
i ate a sweet last night, stood in front of th mirror in th living room looking at my hair,
then weiyu came and boo-ed me, in that sense.
so i inhaled in surprise, & th sweet went into my throat & stayed there.
no worries, i didn't die, see.
it stayed there till this morning.
i woke up & it was gone. well hurray, yay me.

school's in one day and a half, i still have homework left, i feel ashamed, ah god help me.
but i still gotta watch th ellen show and jia sile, and little nyonya too.
i swear i'll finish my work tonight. if i don't, i'll be punished by not going to school on friday. clever me, har, claps.


thank you for believing me when i said i didn't want to fall in love ever again.

that i loved you/

k i did a long post but then blogger suddenly didn't like me and erased it all.
and didn't save it.
ihateblogger.

i'll do it in short again,
-'angus, thongs and perfect snogging' @ plaza sing w peishan & suting yesterday after co,
-last minute bowling @ safra with peishan and suting and amanda and helena,
-walked back home (again),
-going to make a new ezlink card later,
-oh and i stepped on a dead lizard in the music store, and yes i freaked,
-and i forgot what i was going to say, and im not going to remember it
-and yes, i am not kehjun's stead, if 'pass' happens to pass by. you are just so hilarious.

don't say nothing./

co today, mac again, then directed taxi uncle from gwc back to tiong.
i thought he could have just checked th map on his screen thing or something.
that's what others do ah, and is our school located somewhere so desolated that no one knows where it is?

tiong-ed after school, w suting and peishan, booed danielle from behind, whoo <3
yes she jumped, im proud of that :)
chatted w sut and peishan over a cup of coffee (sweettalk actually) and discussed how they were going t smuggle me stuff on suting's 18th birthday.
ah, :)

helena & xinhui's birthday'd both be on friday th 13th, next year.
gongxi, :) bigsmile. congrats. i wish that you'll get lost in a cake, that's what's unlucky. :))

tmr, supposingly, cathay for movie, yumyum.
k idk what's with that yum expression, k im off, byebye :)

co co, tmr. :)
someone please wake me up at 7.30am, thanks, :D


& i wish i never wished it

i supposed that i cared/

amanda binghan helena kailing liuyang qiwei rayner weixian, that's in alphabetical order and mind, i took great effort to arrange it in that way cuz i had to recite th alphabet for god knows how many times.

ah, hahahahahahaha. today was fun, people who wasn't us can roll in puddles of jealousy! eh kidding. :)
(there's always another time :) )
though not alot people went, th fun's still there, like you know, fun!
ofcourse, unexpected stuff's always there [it's great i didn't see you, so there you go, for crowded buses] but yes. :/
'th more th merrier' isn't always right.

esp when i get that super whoo-chatty mood, and then just talk garbage, you know. :)

met helena at my house's bus stop, took direct bus t 'dough-b-god' mrt (helena's way of spelling it) to meet th rest-
then pastamania, i ate even though i alr had lunch, gosh fats.
and not to mention th time we spent deciding where to go cuz zoo was out in the end. :D
headed to kailing's after pastamania, then to safra for bowling even though i don't know how to.
on th other hand, it's kind of like most of us don't know, so there. :)

i love class outings that's totally not like a class outing, bowling's fun when you don't know a single thing.
bowling again next week after co on saturday or friday or something, whooo. *clapclaps*
2/7 '09 = <3
swop-seat-mates.
crazy boys and girls,
fun. :)
seeyou, next year, luvved.

(this has got to be my first longest post since ages ago.)

AM GOING OUT LATER WHOOOOOOOOO : ) BYEBYEEEEEEEE!

people will dissect us till this doesn't mean a thing anymore.

lunch w danielle & her mom & her mom's friends, yummyz.

most of th pictures're in her cam, i've got TWO! *pout*

and worse still, i've got two of the most gross ones.

so in conclusion, i'll not post th ugly ones. i'll wait for th nicer ones instead. :)

then dinner at dad & mom's friend's house, which is like two or three blocks away from my block, which makes no difference -.- missed two minutes of my show.

watched this horribly violent show over at their house, omfgg.

th samurai people'd take out th swords and then there's this horrible sick ripping sound and you see horribly red blood splushing out. super dramatic. they sliced off someone's thumb. i won't be able to sleep tonight, i promise.

and papa's friend the uncle was like there, laughing. i swear he's kind of *whisper* sick. no offence!

and no, i had breakfast at home, not someone else's house. it'd be ridiculous t have breakfast at someone's house.

and i swear im going to gain weight. or correction: i already gained weight. ah.

and suddenly, i've got this craving to go back to school. mmm. :)

kk, goodbyeeeee, i'm off. :) seeyousooooon, merrychristmas. hohoho. little nyonya now. mom's calling me already. ha. bb.

baby, seasons change but people don't/

less than a week to reopen. i kind of got this feeling next year'd be hell.
i have one & a half more maths paper to go.
co's coming real real soon.
heard there's a mini class outing, but prolly can't go. ahhhhh. >:/

everything that you were

outing / gmc. ;)

you see, i already said things would pretty much end up th same. :)
idc, as long as im happy. ah i feel so selfish. :x
you should be, too. even though you'd never see this.

it took twenty-six days to figure out what you really wanted.
th conclusion's that everything's th same. actually, i think nothing'd ever different, in that sense.
what you all wanted was th same. think properly lah.

in your case, you know it's all lies. well at least 85%.
and for th other one, ah. hurts to even think./

i regret, but isn't it always all too late to regret? ah.
i have to at least open my eyes next time to see the real you inside you. /

<3:>

today: "Winning gives you a great high in life, but it is a temporary one -- remember that!"

um, like there's anything else for me t win nowadays? hmm. :s

things are so going t end up th same.

& i never felt more vulnerable.

so i had this, terrible nightmare?
twice over, last night & this morn. didn't sleep for almost three quarters of th night. >:/
felt almost as if i was being tortured in my own dream.

& some mysterious.. forces or something woke me up at 6.59am & 8.32am this morn, exactly th times i wanted/supposed to wake up.
uh, creepy? k.

out-ed w Breastfliend D & her um, friend tday.
wildchild was great, biatch! :-D
lunched later on & her friend left. us girls went t walk around, bought a tranaprent polka-dotted umbrella [D] and ofcourse cammed loads. http://www.heysuperheroine.blogspot.com/, im waiting for th pictures too.

today was another feel-bad day, ah, freak memories, sighz. >:[ sometimes i despise myself.
ah, what t do, what t do.

ah, freak memories.

th nick of time: just th time when you found & picked me up

i stayed up t wait for my dad t come home last night, & omg, he came home real late. >:[

today's a 'feel-bad day'.
feel bad 1: weihao received th edusave award thing for this outstanding cca performance of some thingy.
& mom said, "it'll be good if either you or weiyu learn at least half of his skills."
& i sulked t weiyu. & i complained t weiyu. & i'm still feeling sulky. -.-
mom's definitely like boys better. & im a girl.

feel bad 2:
M fell down th stairs while messaging me. rewarded w a fractured finger & a cut on th head, i swear he's become odder now cuz of th cut. hmm. >:[ i feel bad.

im going t help mom w making dinner later on any, though im still feeling sulky. >:S
im going t show her what a good daughter i really am.

g'bye.

oh, & those tags i forgot t reply. [correction: were too lazy t reply:]

jamie: heh, years! :)

peishan: i finished one paper already! :))

enabelle: hyper as always, :) HELLO ENABELLE!

helena: you crazy woman. :) imy too! oh, & grow up already, next year no more nonsense, cuz you'll be fourteen & me thirteen!

danielle: um, your tags always come by w caps. :) miss you!

*: who're you? i don't get what you mean.

bang, bang, now im dead.

talked t danielle in th middle of th night yesterday, kk, i feel so much happier :) (um, she told me t write this.) :D

"Getting organized will feed your ego and help you feel capable of nearly anything."
im going t tidy up my room today, i promise. :)

& i almost forgot, but im too going t dedicate a paragraph t gordon, who's in korea braving v cold weather now :)
had been v actively contacting him lately, yes it means messaging & talking on th phone. idk why too but it's been like that since after concert, guess i'd made a close friend :)
& cuz he's been such a love-ly & good 'counsellor', this is for him.
this is for YOU, SNOWBALL! thanks, so much. :)
[& according t him, it's not snowing in korea. like what th f?]

baby, i'll be rich & you be great, cuz we love each other.

nothing matters any.

idk, it doesn't matter any.
i realised i've got more than i thought i had.
& im not going t think any, it's not worth it.
nothing's gg t change, yes. quite right.

im going for tuition w peishan, first time of my life.
i've got friends.

__________

H: really, i don't think you understand. :-) you wouldn't want t know why. ;o look who's pretty. :-D im sorry if i'd made you think that i'd been blabbing nonsense about you, but yes.. >:/ sorry.

*: really, unless i know you, oh sorry, i mean even if i know you & you're my closest friend, idc t your words. if you're refering t H, please. cuz i dnt think it's got anything t do w you unless you're me or her. keep your opinions t yourself, thanks. :-) i am strong, i've had enough of all th cheer-ups cuz i don't need anymore cheering up! >:/ don't call people "fake" when your name's just as fake. :-D ciao.

F: there's so many people who're tagging & not letting me know who they are so i think you'll most prolly do th same, ah. :/


please stop. :/ *, F, whoever else. im only thirteen. im only just a small immature kid, can? -.-

nine: break a leg, you.

you can guess, you can ask about who im talking about, but i'll never reveal. :)
and it's not th same, any.
break your brain thinking, you. :)

[removed]

seven: “thank you, next“ (which means you're eliminated from her pathetic little empty heartie and forcing herself t say goodbye, may she never see yo

that’s my friend from hkkk! (: her name’s little fishie. isn’t that cute eh. (:

well they should be in hk by now. really felt like going t th airport w them but i don't want things t turn out wrong again. -.- (i'm afraid i'd PISS people, & i don't want t be a little small little interfering shit too.) goddd.

[ps: th concert was a total rock show, :D (i think.) grace made me look like edward, apparently. ha, ha, ha.]

goodbye goodbye. wave wave wave, hope i see you again next year!

[ps: i want t go t hongkong again. !]

my mom is comparing me to weihao in terms of drumming.

my dad is laughing at me because he thinks im not using my full strength t play drums.

[removed]

six: stay, here forever more and don't let go cuz you know you're th only one she loves.

[removed]

five: tricky parts that make you jumpy and scared and cause elephants in butterfly suits to jump all over in your stomach

what, i wasn't emoing. :)

day of headache.
i returned home only to be clobbered in th head by weiyu once more with a harder than hard bolster.
i swear i hate that kid sometimes, -.-
now my head hurts like OUCH. :(

why do you do this to me?

peishan saw SOMEONE and SOMEONE dyed SOMEONE's hair.
ha, ha, ha. lol.

my head hurts. i think i'm having a fever but that might be cuz i'm cold too.
another long day tomorrow, 8am to 8.30pm. and i tell myself, one more day till it's all over.
weixian, you can do it.
i hope my head behaves tomorrow.
dinner at some really posh-sounding restaurant tomorrow, i am stuffing myself till i die. >:(
goodbye.

four: mirror, mirror on th wall that makes you see anyone but yourself and instead shows th one you've always been caring for

im so bored that i just want to sit here and rot my ass off forever, if nobody minds.
of course, nobody minds, so i'd probably do it.

someone jumped off a building here at th block next t mine.
i can almost see who'd be th next one t jump off in th future now.
some really tortured soul.
mama told me if you commit suicide, you'll be stuck in hell and won't ever get t reincarnate. and yes i freaking hell believe in that. so idk what i should do if nothing works out one day.
i'll go live under a mrt track with some homeless people and make friends with them.
i hope they'd be nice to me. i'd bring hot drinks and comfy-table blankets to them. i'd bring food too.
i won't let a soul know where i am.


on second thoughts, i could actually swim to another unknown island far away from singapore and claim that island as mine. if i ever learn how to swim for real.
there'll be a cosy little hut with a warm fireplace that i can cuddle near during cold days.
and yes there'd be four seasons.

during spring i'll be fishing and hunting for food to last me th entire year.
during summer i'll go sun-tanning and turn charcoal black so no one teases me being white anymore.
during autumn i'll be gathering my little pets like th cute little stray lambdog that i found on th island and some other animals i love so dearly into th house in preparation for th imminent snowstorms.
during winter, when snowfall is light, i'll throw snowballs into th frozen ocean and go gliding around in th frozen pond. and i'll snuggle up with a little lambdog-puppy th lambdog gave birth to in a warm armchair in front of th fire and read fairytale stories to my little lambdog-puppy.


i would kill to lead a simple life.
i don't like what i am now.
i want nothing but simplicity.
i want that little island and that little cottage. and that lambdog that exists only in my imagination.
i want t be alone, so no one can hurt me forevermore.
i'll remain happy forever.
no one can hurt me no more.

three: unmagical wizards who can't change a thing

not in th mood for anything.
something's kind of missing around here, somewhere.
idk what, but im positive something's missing.

i told someone,
mao mao rain plus mao mao rain plus more mao mao rain is equals to a lot of rain already.

and too much panadol is actually harmful t you body.

"try a few experiments and see what you can make happen tonight."
well im tired of trying, fuck.
experiments just don't work out for me.
upon closer examination, it's kind of like nothing works out this holiday.
ha, ha. merry christmas to you, weixiannnnnnnnnn.












i just keep waiting and waiting but what im waiting for doesn't turn up.
stupid me.
i hate myself.
i'll stop waiting soon,
i promise.


but aren't promises always broken in th end? >:/

two solos, it is

jianwei gave us toblerone bars yesterday during co prac.
i gave weiyu th space at th front, T, O, B, L, and i ate E, R, O, N, E and that space at th end,
cuz i used th chocolate to bribe him into eating my lunch. :)

heck loads of headaches, stupid rain. grr. >:(
disapprovement, roar.

th pictures from saturday's trip.

i told you i got blacker.

took it from siling's blog, :)

thanks you siling. :)

i want to go out again, goodbye.

one polka dot

cooooo today.
waving with straight fingers is so so fun :)
concert's in FIVE DAYS' time. :s

headache's washing me off, i got blacker already!
SILING: I WANT THE PICTURES.
SUTING: I WANT THE PICTURES.
hehhhhh. :)

seeyou.

i stopped caring starting from 12.09am onwards.