Wednesday, April 29, 2009

clueless


im sorry but all those was taken really really long ago.


probably might miss school for tomorrow.
dad is sick too.



loads of toilet trips and intended toilet trips during all of curriculum time.
somehow i was stupid enough to take medication in th morning and then went all fainty fainty floaty throughout.
somehow managed to laugh too (mr c. very funny :D:D:D)
then LA. somehow managed to struggle through.
then PE. somehow managed to get the energy to play cap's ball with them. was like, the screamiest cap's ball match ever. so cool. so i joined in.
*runs* *catches (or @ least tries to)* *drops* *screams* someone saves the ball and *coughs**coughs**coughs**coughs**coughs**coughs**coughs**coughs**coughs**coughs*.
that was pretty much how it went, wow so amazing.
(i hear marvin singing to his baby/toddler cousin and he says she's dancing.)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

there was nothing i could say.

daddy said not to sleep too much. otherwise body temp will increase too.
he ask me watch tv, but i prefer sitting here watch comp. :)

no school again today.
tmr gg back! i bet it'll be another half-day of school before i feel sick all over again and run home.
so troublesome.

stomach hurts. threw up like what, tenthousand times. fuck hungry now.
oh, and people sick will lose weight what, cuz they don't really eat?
i sick, i eat a bit, then sleep lie around sleep sleep. i swear will become fatter.


mighty daddy says to wait for him to come back from weihao's then he'll bring me for a ride in his car.
(i prefer the bike please? haven't tried before.)

my tummy hurts. i got nothing to say alr byebye.

Monday, April 27, 2009

sob sob sniffle hate

pain's unbearable, couldn't talk.
i hope it's tonsillitis or something so i can get like into hospital to get it removed then get out of the house at the same time cuz it's incredibly noisy over here what with weiyu and mom arguing all the time, i can't stand it.
hope to be fine by thursday cuz there's chinese tests. how terrible.
i feel like some tortoise or snail. not really supposed to get exposed to too much sunlight.

to school @ 1.10p.m. today to pass bin's welcome back card (more like some wordy shit.)
somehow managed to dodge chinese teacher. wouldn't want to explain to her. shit the throat man.
graffiti art, can't stand the smell and fumes like i used to be able to. :( so useless.
cabbed back after that. how unbearable.

i want to die NOW.
don't want to hurt anymore.
can't endure anymore lah O M G OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOGMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.

think i shall make a trip over to the doctor/hospital tonight. can't stand it sigh.
(im lucky i still can type. i can't even talk or whisper or sigh. can only squeak like some filipino maid.)

Sunday, April 26, 2009

re: doctor

majorly suck sick, i am going to see the doctor now,
(amanda your eyes are O.o, my eyes are -.-/ :D:D:D)
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edit: (1.38p.m.)

couldn't sleep all of last night, aching legs -
then i finally went over to him and sat beside him (sleeping).
after what seemed like idk, ten thousand years of rocking on the floor and crying, finally did dare to tap him gently (didn't want him to wake up, so selfish of me.)

so he jumped up and touched my face and oh boy.
went to the kitchen in half-conscious state and got like one bucket of water and three towels or something. can't remember i was like half-dead already.
then i remember looking at the time oh it was around 3.30a.m, and him wiping my body with the towels. i fell asleep. felt great. teehee.

then woke up and looked at the time was like 4.15+ OMG like wtf, forty-five minutes (?!?!?!)
fel loads better though, then he carried me over to my bed and stroked my hair till i slept (ah, the wonders of baby pillows). didn't take long to knock out though.
held his hand and slept.

(and i thought they didn't care for me? oh man i need to seriously bang myself against the wall or something, i feel so guilty.)

woke up at 11.30a.m. today with eyes swollen like -.- yes, couldn't see things like OMG?
doctor's, 7 packets of medication and MC for tomorrow (\: i'll call you all and then maybe do something about it im so sorry.)

i gotta go sleep now WHOA word spam! (see above)
(thank you for taking time and effort to read the above if you did because i can't bear to read it myself.)

Saturday, April 25, 2009

the loner frees his mind @ night



lovey-dovey lunch with all last firday which really means yesterday hahaha, mac then talk fuck loads. hehhehhehhehhehehehehehheheheheh. pretty long alt

i think im gonna be sick cuz brother is and brother was home last night.
then again, if im sick, H will be sick too cuz we were pretty close today, oh correction, we were VEEERY close. lollol.

monthsary #3 today ah how times flies. soon it'll be three years and he'll have that other girlfriend.
happy third-monthsary, i love you okie dokie. forever okie dokie :)
early morning climb out of bed rush over to H's.
almost banged down by crazy taxi huhu and
hand scraped by door frame cuz there was this fly-able cockroach on the pub's toilet door. waited until this auntie came in then i rush out. what a fucker.
pretty moodless i swear H's bed vveerryy nice cuz i fell asleep without knowing it! and i don't sleep on other people's beds.
then lunchtime was dragged till like 2+ cuz idiot boy dota until give the excuse of don't want wake me up.
caffe pralet for lunch ahaha planned pretty long ago. yummy yummy. i think that made me sicker.
wtf sun damn hot today everybody roasted like shit like that.
byebye i need to sleep my head is bugging me. massage, anyone? :(
tags:
  • kailing: hahahaha i can talk better using words! :)
  • janicengli: angry what shit? i give you lollipop lah don't angry lah :D:D:D
  • helena: later fat lah good luck :D:D:D:D:D
  • shuen: eyyyy :)
  • suting: luv you too miss you stupid shite :)

Thursday, April 23, 2009

suicide superstar

i have had a wonderful day with donuts and letters and ugh oh boy is that an ant on my table?
*hold on while i send it off to heaven (or hell.).

i had a lot of things to blog but im busy with other things.
so byebye. i promise something better soon.

oh, i love you, all.

happy third monthsary in advance though i knw you won't see this.
please don't be angry anymore.

tags:
  • hetao: hey..? :) link up soon :)
  • enabelle: well it's over but thanks :)
  • janicengli: eh boy! :)
  • farhana: love yout oo.
  • jamie: will :) lublub!
  • danielle: no singapore's kinder joy reserved for me only! and maybe some other people. i might negotiate with them for you :)
  • helena: omg euu donchx twitxz larhxxz donchx eatz porkz flossz it'sz notz halalz lahz. deyz.
  • limin: yes yes! :)
  • peishan: yes omg! luv ya :)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

'strangely, it didn't.'

loooooooooong day over @ gran's.
omg, i don't deserve getting roasted i swear! what is with the weather!

i v thirsty like a cactus now sia.

less than ten hours to monday (again.)
less than 100 hours to SYF (what a big number.)
and i think there's more but im lazy to think, bye i need to use the phone.

so chilly.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

'come on boy, give me your hand'

breakfast in th morning @ tiong mac, dad fetched.
then co for the whole day, ended around 4.
M was outside school.
@ his place now, im sorry for what i did.
going home soon. waiting for that boy to finish shitting, oh god sorry i just posted that out.

oops.


must we blog like that?
like, i did this, i didn't do this, i went here, i went there.
this is getting boring god.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

'what we had has come & gone.'

friday tomorrow. have been waiting for so long. i think i need to rest or something but is that possible? sigh, pathetic life im tired of it already.
i have totally no idea why you did that today. because i was already close to forgetting everything and you just reminded me again.
again.

detention tomorrow. two hours.
co tomorrow. wtf?
DS still not completed, point penalty thing starts on monday for us.
i have no idea where to start now, somebody help me?

how do i continue on? i feel tired already.
how to go on? seriously.


that one sentence made it feel unbearable insidefor me even though i have no idea why.

(i don't think i ever let go. i don't think i will.)

Saturday, April 11, 2009

'good morning, humans.'

yes i woke up.\
now im going back to sleep.


goodnight, humans.

'oh, i wish that i was looking into your eyes.'

am @ M's after co did i mention i skinned my bloody knee on th bloody wood floor of th bloody music room, i swear nothing good happens to me in that room.
it hurts like fuck cb can't stand it. what th bloody fuck.

i want to blog pictures.
i went through the photo albums last night, i don't know why we've become like that. i don't want it this way too.
my knee hurts.

tags:
(wait what th bloody fuck now my knee hurts PLUS my leg is numb from putting it on the bloody chair for too long.)
  • peishan: yeah i miss you :( come back soon.
  • enabelle: HELLO ENABELLE!
  • jamie: ey! :)
  • farhana: yeah, we used ice mountain bottle that ended up in th trash can remember? :) oh yes unglams! omgomg! uh what about it? :)))))
  • danielle: WHATEVER. :) lion eat tiger lah. roar somemore i bazooka you.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

'im leaving my fingerprints on you'



coolest picture. bh bazooka-ed me with his guitar.




pretty cool day.

everybody would most prbably be @ school now though i won't understand why they want to be in school @ night when it's a holiday tomorrow! gosh.
good thing i didn't go omg can't stop sneezing idk what's happening my throat hurts my nose hurts i feel v, v, vvvvv fucked up.
have just been loaded with a ton of homework for the weekends, bloody hell i still have co.
peishan's most prolly gone idk what will become of me this saturday morning. (who to go school with?)

*i feel very not good now, puck!


(a lot of minutes have gone by but im back!)



i really don't feel good so bye, shit my nose. i can't say fuck but i can say puck.
i sound something like,"puck by bose band." i really meant 'fuck my nose man.'
of course, i wouldn't want that to happen so i take that back.

ow it hurts from breathing in hard.


oh and what did i want to say? oh, i HEARD this commercial on okto just now, on vitagen less sugar.
little girl said, "vitagen less sugar is GOOD because it's FAT, FREE and LOW in SUGAR!"
i think what she wanted to say was in fact, "vitagen less sugar is GOOD because it's FAT FREE and LOW in SUGAR."
what a pucktard.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

'i dare you to say they taste the same.'











just these for today. the rest another day.

omg what a great day. (whew omg.)
great morning too, :b bh and farhana would most probably know what im talking about [omggggg mr c :))))) ]
great afternoon w farhana down the hill, FUCKING HIGH LAH the both of us :D
it's amazing how much noise two people can make if they put their mind to it.

sang the barney song, then the one little two little three little indian song, then mary had a little lamb, then baa baa black sheep, then DANCED and sang the hokey pokey song, and finally th 'this old man, he played one' song.
great, aren't we. mighty fighty girls!

oh and we played soccer down the slope from the canteen. cool, aren't we.

i can't view any blogs right now, what the bloody hell of a bitch. C-mehmeh.



maths test was postponed to next week, god bless us! whooooooopdeedo
if you don't trust me, i've nothing to say but shouldn't you?

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

'such a heart that will lead you to deceiving'

tried to play hotelsixtwosix again but then closed promptly out of TERROR.
holy shit.
my heart was like thumping!
damn it.

pictures just doesn't load, im fucked up pissed off now maths test tomorrow i can't peel myself from the comp so i shall stop! bye.

my mouth moves too fast for you to figure it out

Monday, April 6, 2009

'bomb bomb bomb spam'


omg, was like so touched cuz super merrio's finally up on the wall :') this was the one i said i stole from your phone, remember? :)




farhana ah, binghan ah, don't think i want to get the others up today cuz load fucking slow lah.
dl.
see you tomorrow :\

'i've got a new set of wheels, we can go for a ride'

just almost completed taking all the photos for DS today omg i can't believe how im developing rashes and mosquito bites and my mozzie cream's running out!
lots of random pictures too, and oh, lots of bloopers.
with BINGHAN as the PHOTOGRAPHER, what can go right? (you know im just kidding right? :))

don't worry, i'll take my time posting them up. happy waiting :)
and i shall post ONLY the bloopers and candids and unglams and all.

'& i don't wanna go to bed, mad @ you.'

@ the lab now with a blank mind, idk what to do next becuz idk what to do.
farhana on my left, binbin on my right.
i want recess now. i want to sleep.
goodnight.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

i thought i was a fool for no one, but ooh baby im a fool for you.

CIP early morning till about one plus or two in th afternoon,
fuck it my legs are a-c-h-i-n-g my balls off. (er yeah.)
too much sun? think the heat finally got to me. huge god damn headache.
freak.

perhaps home is the best place to be, even if it's intolerable.

i don't know what you think of me, i hope you see this.
am i insufferable? intolerable?
stop giving in, you know you don't like. i don't know why you always want to stuff you don't like just for me.
don't do it.
i don't know what's wrong. stop asking what's wrong with me.
why must everything , or anything at all, 'be wrong with me'?
ah gay shoot.
im sorry if you say im not understanding but ah whatever i don't know what to say anymore.


out for now.

Friday, April 3, 2009

don't you know anything?

i think black and white's pukey.
it's 10.49p.m., i feel sleepy already. i think i'll wake up at something like 8.30 and beg dad to fetch me to school while i sleep more in the car in PJs!
oh i don't wear PJs.

i don't know what's wrong with you, i can't seem to read your mind.
i never could anyway, so ah what am i screwing over?
just a regular moodswing i guess.

party correspondent

im sorry for what i said, im sorry for that terrible attitude.
you know i didn't want to fight, you know i never wanted to fight!
i know how you feel cuz i've gone through it before, do you know how i feel? i feel guilty :/

i really didn't want it to be this way.


not a good day, don't ask.
i don't want to go for that cip thing tomorrow. i don't want to!
i feel like feeling like and behaving like a spoiled child right now.
oh man!
i want to kick legs and stick out tongues and blow raspberries and play rude and roll on the ground and beg for candy and lick the floor and kick your ass and not eat greens and dance with old gay monks and fly into the sky with the cow and draw rainbows and eat the sun!
there's more but i'll prolly save your eyes by stopping whoopdeedoo see you all tomorrow i guess.
cuz i have no choice.


BUT AT LEAST I GET TO WAKE UP LATE! OMG!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

insomniac tv



isn't that cool, i drew that!
pretty cool day. i forgot what i did anyway.
ANYWAY.
yeah maths test is definitely _____, no hope alr.
oh well let's look forward to a better tmr like amanda said :)
luv you all! see you on the last day of school (for this week) :)
i don't know if i can't take the exams, everyday that goes by reminds me of how close im getting to the dates.
i can't help but worry and stress but then again, even if i resolve to study and revise, i somehow can't make it cuz somehow i tell myself to do it later and then i procrastinate like nobody's business!
can't help but feel disappointed with myself sometimes, and angry.
seems like things are somehow getting more and more stressful. or is it just me being lazy?
i think it's just me cuz pother people don't look like they're struggling with their work!
i think im helpless, hopeless.

too close for comfort

thanks xinhui, thanks thanks thanks.
i help you massage your blu-black tmr! :)
luv ya, eternal.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

just another

more like jennifer aniston.
girl next door with a free spirit, low key and naturally sexy. sweet and approachable, upbeat attitude. always eventually turn things around.
(omg how not accurate.)

true birth month is MARCH
moody, secretive, revengeful, trustworthy, affectionate, loves traveling, loves attention, shy and reserved, musically talented (am i? lol.), loves home decor, not easily angered, sensitive to others, loves special things, attractive personality, loves to serve others, loves peace and serenity, observant and assesses others, loves to dream and fantasize, appreciative and returns kindness, hasty decisions in choosing partners, naturally honest, generous and sympathetic

should be an aries
fearless about taking charge and grabbing the spotlight, if annoyed, not going to hide it! in love, jump in quickly and don't mind risking your heart. in friendship, am like to have a new friend every month. ideal job: detective, butcher, or surgeon (?!)

should spend summer/holidays in the mountains
quiet, introspective, and a great thinker. need a summer vacation that gets you away from the crowds and the heat. retreat to the mountains, where you can clear your head.

celtic animal is a SWAN
calm, gentle, and serene person. happiest when you can relax and enjoy the world. beautiful, both inside and out. find it easy to love and are easy to love. stable and strong. can bring security to your family and friends. have deep emotions, and are a lot more sensitive than let on.

you're A BIT prissy
can be a princess from time to time,, but who isn't a little high maintenance?
knows what you want, and definitely not afraid to ask for it. (refrain from having a temper tantrum if it doesn't go your way!)
nothing wrong with having high standards... as long as they're occasionally low enough to allow spontaneity and fun!

your superhero name is The Armadillo Blade
superpower: technology
weakness: bacteria
weapon: atomic gun
mode of transportation: jet pack!

you are 40% manic
have your hyper, manic moments - but you keep them in check.
ideas and thoughts flood your head, but you don't need to act on them.
you've found a good deal of balance in your life. enjoy it!
(good deal of balance? i think i did that quiz wrongly.)

what's your holiay drink? you're a champagne!
holiday personality is celebratory.
in other words, you love to drink!
to you, the holidays are a time to let loose and enjoy yourself.
you figure they only happen once a year, so why restrain yourself?

you're a sweet
when it comes to snacks, you're more likely to grab some candy than heat up a pizza.
a good chance you're female (women prefer sweet snacks).
or at least, you prefer to be in the company of women.
tastes are simple and predictable. young at heart, you tend to crave food you can just grab and eat.

you're confident... sometimes.
can seem confident when the occasion calls for it.
but inside, you may be experiencing a bit of self doubt.
a little more inner confidence could take you far and convince others that you're as confident as you try to seem.

you're 35% british.
about as British as a half hearted Anglophile... in other words, a piss poor Brit.
if you're indeed from Britain, you probably consider yourself a European more than anything else.
if you're trying to pass for a Brit, you're going to have to try a little harder. go to a football match. drink till you puke. head in to work the next morning totally hungover.

you've been neglecting your priorities.
your career is usually your number one priority. you don't mind having things to get done... as long as they don't pile up on you.
have trouble giving time to any of your priorities. life is too busy and chaotic.
want thinking to be a high priority, but you don't take enough time for yourself.

you're midtown.
you love so many things, you don't fit into any one label.
just the type of person who goes to a fancy restaurant one night and a dive bar the next.
can fit in almost anywhere, feel equally comfortable in old jeans and designer duds.
unpretentious, neither a snob nor a hipster. you're just you.

your body image is 40% unhealthy, 60% healthy
quite a healthy body image, though you're sometimes a little bit too hard on yourself.
chances are you've got a rockin' body - so enjoy it!
(omg no way.)

you're a relationship rescuer!
never ruin relationships, if anything you keep them together!
the key: you respect yourself and your guy, which goes further than you might think.
you simply treat your guy how you would like to be treated... the old golden rule.
& in return, he treats you like gold - or at least tries. & how perfect is that?

you're an indian (omgwthitp!)
likely that you spent a lot of time outdoors as a kid.
feel comfortable and at peace in nature. identify with Native Americans.
are a truly helpful and giving person, like to lend a hand. & while you do your best to do the right thing, people haven't always been kind back to you.

your taste in music says you're wild
intense and rebellious. intelligent... but in a very unconventional way. curious about the world. love doing something new. enjoy taking risks and doing things most people would shy away from. are very physical. likely that you're athletic, but not into team sports. have the soul of an artist. beauty and harmony are important to you.



that's enough for the day.

page three ninety-seven.

wasn't that good a day, thank you amanda for your drawing,, helena for your letter, farhana, kailing, binbin, sharon, xinhui, peishan, suting and M for comforting me and all those kind words. i never knew how much people cared before today. love you guys omg!
(amanda, im pinning up your drawing on my wall! :) :) :) )

sunny skies after rain hahaha was ultra happy after that.
math test omg. i'd given up halfway and put it aside altogether and moved on to other assignments that had to be done.
i really want to give up.

im veryyyyyyyyyy tired, inside and out.
i still don't know why school is starting to stress me up so bye, haha.
i hope i fall sick within a night so no school tomorrow and mc for friday too.

a little something that soemhow made me laugh a toot lot, check it out too, you :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WzMuax75s3M&feature=PlayList&p=38781D56233348C5&index=0&playnext=1
how can i stop it all?