re-link

heartonmilesxz

2010-05-24T21:40:00.000+08:00

i am fickle-minded, i know
but i am determined to start blogging again cause... yaaaaa

>>>>heartonmiles

c spells change

2010-03-08T16:54:00.006+08:00

http://www.crudecrie.blogspot.com

off you go, off my shoulder, never to bother me again

"they say key to life is happiness.

they say key to happiness is loving yourself.

and loving yourself might take a while, from imperfection to imperfection.

you're not perfect, darling. but i'll tell you something else; you're beautiful.

"everything will be okay, yes everything will come right again.

what you must know though, is that things wont be fine instantly.

the pain you feel, it isn't going to disappear magically.

but while you're hurting and wishing yoru were dead, know that there are so many things so many people would do for you just to keep you alive, just because we love you.

"just reach out, open up your breaking heart and talk to someone, anyone. and till the pain goes away, keep your faith. because it really does get better."

- suicidal 28th feb

emiz

2010-02-19T02:22:00.002+08:00

@TIGERSCRY died man. srsly.

then @emisecrts popped out. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn my leg is aching so is my head

zzzzzzzzzzz

2010-02-19T01:46:00.003+08:00

koped from meteoroutbursts',

now frayzelol and hammiexian are off to bed and theres nobody else to talk to. apart from the three other people still online
WHY THREE. WHY SO LITTLE.
um, yeah.
trying to make myself a little sicker and hopefully deader by tmr 6AM coz i dont feel like going to school... damn. all the tests and homework i didnt bother to complete coz i was too busy being irritated.

pretty moodless for a good part of the day. dk why.
frayzelol and brother = receiving end of the bad mood cloud.
feel pretty sorry for frayzelol but not brother because he irritated me first.
am trying to have big words coz certain people complain about the font size.

MY LIPS LIKE SUGAR

2010-02-19T00:44:00.004+08:00

trying to convince @frayzelol that cough medicine does NOT taste like gasless coke
and twin told me to put sugar bits on my lips and lick it off with tongue BUT i still taste nothing
explosive taste in mouth after i ate a sweet BUT i dont know what it tastes like sweet or sour or whatever.
idk if im still going t school tmr, was better earlier in the afternoon but am pretty much dead again now. BUT i wanna go body worlds tmr -.- like eh, damn once in a lifetime opportunity (ok not really)
mozilla crashed a few times. f-ed up

gonna go fb twitter and drop dead.

over

2010-02-14T22:09:00.004+08:00

i should close this down. hi, first day of cny and i've been cursed to die. bye, night
(im only gonna break break your break break your heart)

i sure do know how to kill my own mood :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

random indian called and asked why i was using his number. then he texted me.
mr. indian: "Happy i am good firend i dond no English you Teaching PLEASE EVER THING PASSible Ok plus no miynese 1 000 time"
me: "do you know what's fuck off?"

dying for one

2010-02-11T21:30:00.002+08:00

idk why. just after seeing pictures i like, ache for it. woo.
shocked, seriously. at stomp. all the funny funny weird weird stuff like students kissing in trains/on carpark rooftops and uncles peeing in public and all ugh freaking gross.
today was hell.
tmr MLMB and tigerscry gets to skip poa test!!!!! i think. okay anyway.
(not)early night tonight!! omg 3 more working days for J. hehehe. k idk what else so bye.

should i shut this down dont feel like blogging anymore its so... idk.

meet-night = midnight

2010-02-10T21:55:00.003+08:00

J is going to slap me. just because i have lizards at home

little surprise out at 3/5's today.
felt like shit after pe and during maths today.
felt like a fxcking endless food pit during recess.
wrote my wednesday letter.
my envelope is feeling thick already.
weiyu showed off that he got 40/50 in a chinese test mom is praising him. i got 42. why dont i get anything
f-ed up f-ed up f-ed up
nom nom nom nom nom nom nom and shane d is cheering me up much.
charging my phone.
tiong + sweettalk + kenneth mabel nps wx + tiong park + swings + private business = (Y)
dreams = (Y)
brothers = (N)
surprises = (Y)
letters = (Y)(N)
school = (N)(N)(N)(N)(N)(N)(N)
cny = ..... (Y)?

n-n-n-ow that that dont kill me

2010-02-09T21:38:00.003+08:00

just went out to meet J's for a while for his letter HAHAHAHAHHAHA came with green lays/ruffles but wrong timing. -.- zzz
naise handwriting, mini like him. heh.
wednesday thursday and friday to go before my monday-friday letters are complete. heeeeee

dozed off like 1234567 times in class today. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz shall sleep early tonight like now.
lappy is propped to shoulder height idk why but im srsly typing with difficulty
TMR IS WEDNESDAY = MID WEEK = WEEKENDS COMING SOON = CNY (N) = NO SCHOOL (Y)
best huh. yup.
too lazy to do maths work. oops. tired. oops. k i can only think of coke lays letters talks and sleep now so yeah.

srsly dk whats wrong with you, whats the point of doing it if you dont even think you should in the first place, whats with all this shit srsly AHHHHHHHHHHH night.
15th.

giiiiiiiiiimic

2010-02-03T00:19:00.003+08:00

i am hungry at night again

k so yeah.
have a headache from like, the loss of water suddenly and i pray that my eyes wont be swelling tmr or its bye school
all the sobbing, arghhhhh my lungs. A-HA-HA

want to talk to twenty-sixth but ah. zzz okay nvm k night bye bye.

what more to expect?

2010-02-02T23:11:00.003+08:00

i just cant say it out to you but looking at you standing at my door through tears
it doesnt help. all i can say is there is nothing left to say, i still love you all but yall even doubt it so that leads to nothing left to say

anyway, night.

lowlife

2010-02-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

i thought i just mentioned disgusting people. more came up
what do you gain? like srsly just name it what do you gain from breaking me what do you gain from seeing me upset beaten up crying what do you gain from my fucking tears you wont even see.
*in case you're reading this im not trying to make it big, im not trying to make myself lose face, what im trying to say is that it concerns me yet i dont have the right to know?
okay probably you promised you cant say i understand but then do i deserve these shit
im not the only one yeah i guess but who can feel comfortable with this kinda stuff
its only tuesday. as in tmr's only tuesday.
fml.
what do you get? if you dare to start untruths we'd think you'd dare to admit to it but HA-HA

well lets see the hurt you deliver has exact same effects as my pills, thanks a lot im going to bed.

fuck man you're disgusting

2010-02-01T22:15:00.002+08:00

i wanna blog about a lot of disgusting people but perhaps its a bit mean.
i mean like idk whats with the sudden increase of disgusting people.
i cant stand disgusting people, i may be one of the disgusting people at times but still i dont like disgusting people, oops sorry.

school has been hell but weeks have flown by, getting used to the flow of stuff. zzz.
i want holidays soon or i'll die
i need something cold and sweet in my mouth now pls. pref pink. like strawberry icecream whooooooooooops
okay gonna go finish up the chalkboard shit anyway bye.

btw, stop being disgusting.

kill kill

2010-01-27T20:21:00.004+08:00

FREAK-ing long ago. and i know, too.
i think its last last year. wait no its last year like feb or something. (power memory)

i regret too much. jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj ^^

okay was doing maths stuff with binbin and shuen and mdm teo today. pretty (Y) coz i understood quite a lot. most of which i forgot
i wont fail. i wont fail. i wont fail.
okay then went to do the art room wall after that. yeah pretty much done apart from flowers and outline. (whistles)
okay my dad bought my mom a new phone so cute. my mom's fingers too fat and its touchscreen. so k bye.

love you, but... nothing. but nothing.

ni shi own.

2010-01-25T20:51:00.002+08:00

joke of the day.

Joel 戒 (づﾟ∀ﾟ)づ ♥ says:
*joel awesome
(wx) says:
*thats not a proper name
Joel 戒 (づﾟ∀ﾟ)づ ♥ says:
*yeah it is
*my name's joel awesome quek
*with a silent awesome
(wx) says:
*you are too lame
Joel 戒 (づﾟ∀ﾟ)づ ♥ says:
*hhahaha
(wx) says:
*you are so lame my eyes hurt
Joel 戒 (づﾟ∀ﾟ)づ ♥ says:
*okok. i shall shut up a bit.

cut my nails with some cool purple shit nail cutter on wh's desk. coolest ever now my nails are ruined thanks a lot.
no one will see me living beyond this year

you will never understand

2010-01-25T20:26:00.003+08:00

how... released i feel.
had a good texting with you and i let everything out and most stuff i didnt even realise until i typed it out.
so i guess its all good now and that i dont have to be an ostrich ever again unless anything else happens ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh all's well that ends well.

feel oh so oh so great.

okay anyway. ITS THE 25TH AND I THINK THE BILLS ARE COMING SOON

maths was hell. i think its gonna remain this way forever until i live out my short life
(and its proven, i HAVE a short life just unsure of when its finishing. sorry for saying such stuff but its proven.)
yesterday night was kinda hell but thanks to @fatsayz and @frayzelol and other people but i know i can be the same old same old boring like shit but thank you.
had a late night and felt so numb today. never felt this kinda feeling before almost like i wanna roll downhill

okay what sai. gonna go talk to @frayzelol and watch my boyfriend on youtube and... pretty much it.
oh, and check this out.
1) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOpn5V1kPmg&NR=1
2) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFaivFDZMXo
see which is more entertaining.

ouch ouch last stick.

2010-01-23T23:11:00.005+08:00

never seen so much Domos dancing.

headache sneezes runny nose blocked nose sore throat cough, best is monday go see doctor and get MCs for the two longest school days of the week. i know polyclinic doctors are the (Y)

bought some tongue stud and mega-huge diamond ear stds for bombmo today i swear its the best coz the diamond ears stds make him look like a bloody rich taitai.
the tongue one is gross.

claps perfomance today @ beo cresent today again, pretty cool coz only played one song and was majr chaos after that running about changing out of school u. (dont even want to talk about wearing school uni outside side gate and begging for shoes [thanks dorothy])
pretty crazy day. made it in time for the second half of ivan's concert. was pretty good and we were all 'IVAN!'ing after the show. encore piece was (Y) coz we knew the song.

(six girls in a car is the noisiest shit)

peishan mabe crystal sutingg left after concert and me and neonpinknails walked over to intl plaza's mac. at night = crowded. idk why dont ask
realised me and NPN talked a lot today. okay maybe not a lot but it was pretty deep and had a good cry in the shower just now. i know how everything works alr
i've never felt so close to her in such a long time. and i've a feeling we'll remain that way for quite a long time if not forever

okay headache's killing me. gonna go catch some sleep zzzzzzzzzzz okay night bye.
(some kind of a massive photo spam and i thought i looked okay in pictures today. check danielle's or mabe's soon. (Y)
nighty.

grabbed - the best ever

2010-01-21T23:20:00.004+08:00

1) Do this to a person you are talking to
2) You have to do it!
3) Don’t cheat! Or else you will ruin the fun. If you are going to cheat, don't do it at all!
4) If you can say these in rapid-fire to one person without them blocking you or just not
answering. . You are the CHAMP
5) you must write their response to each of these:
Here we go...

1) Type "I'm superman"
helena: WHAT TALKING YOU HAHAHAHAH
danielle: huh. lol. im at the doctor's now
twin: i am fallen hamster!
peishan: (no reply)
rayner: o.o wtf? LOL
bombom: !?
bigben: i'm super woman
mabel: HAHAH. :) ok. :) wonderman.

2) Type "I lost my eyeball"
helena: (didnt send)
danielle: huh. you are mad.
twin: i grew thorns
peishan: (didnt send)
rayner: wtf you okay mah need me stapler back?
bombom: fuck you
bigben: whatever
mabel: (didnt send)

3) Type "Oh my gosh I heard about your fish"
helena: (didnt send)
danielle: huh what my fish...
twin: eh i see your eyebrown just smile!
peishan: (didnt send)
rayner: fish? you know who i am mah you sound like talking to wrong person
bombom: (no reply)
bigben: what fish
mabel: (didnt send)

4) Type "You and me are best buds right?"
helena: yes why leh -.- you high liao ah
danielle: yeah?
twin: no, not best friend is girlfriend!
peishan: why
rayner: yeah lol why leh i just said hi to you this morning
bombom: eh fuck off
bigben: ya why lei
mabel: hmm. yes ah. whats wrong?

5) Type "ok so can i tell you something?"
helena: ya? no lame things plz!
danielle: yeah?
twin: o.o yeah?
peishan: uhhuh.
rayner: -_- ask me go hong gan?
bombom: simi. get my drum pad back
bigben: ya what? lol
mabel: hmmm. sure thing ah. whats wrong.

6) Type "i'm on drugs.''
helena: -.-
danielle: HUH?! ARE YOU SERIOUS.
twin: o.o how come?
peishan: what drugs!!!!
rayner: wtf i also. im on cheese im cheesy
bombom: naise. you better not let me catch you. i will fucking kill you
bigben: zzz what kind
mabel: hmmm. you're stressed out is it?

7) Type "Did you just lie to me!?
helena: huh?
danielle: huh... ok nvm.
twin: -.- nope i didnt?
peishan: what sai you talking
rayner: serious. ate four slices of cheese 2 cups of milk
bombom: fuck you fuck off
bigben: no why
mabel: huh.

8) Type " how could you?!? "
helena: (no reply coz i forgot to send)
danielle: (didnt send)
twin: nope i really didnt u lied to me!
peishan: (forgot to send)
rayner: use my mouth? you zhi high arh
bombom: (no reply)
bigben: wtf is wrong with you srsly
mabel: (didnt send)

10) Type "i love you".
helena: eh fuck lah dont play lah not funny
danielle: ok.
twin: i love you too!
peishan: is this a facebook quiz or smt you idiot i did it before
rayner: LOL anyway who's my fish
bombom: (no reply)
bigben: eh srsly what is wrong with you... if you are nt gonna talk properly im gonna ignore
mabel: you okay a not? why sound so weird like that

doesnt sck

2010-01-21T21:42:00.003+08:00

only farhana can take pictures from this kind of bloody height
(Y).

this is about the highest. i cant go to that height.

lets be honest you know it i know it so theres no hiding anymore. so why not you come out of your bloody turtle shell and explain nicely (though you already did) that its never going to happen so i can put it all down and calmly drink my floor detergent or something (jk) and just get over it already and you wouldnt be frustrated over me irritating you because well yeah dont lie you and i both know thats what we think. no more freaking over it no more worrying no more waiting for texts no more thinking of you no more having fuckin dreams and no more letters no more seein you no more fretting no more pissing no more empty promises and patronising words best of all no more hurtin and no more pills (i know i promised im sorry) you say you wanted it sometimes but on other occasions you dont so where does that leave you and me? you = a fickle-minded person and me = a sad one. so whats the point like that yeah i know im selfish to think like that because some certain other person said i was selfish before (:\) but what do i care about now? one more word from you. at the very start you said 'you just have to say yes or no' and my answer was.... yeah you have to know only. then when i used it back on you how many weeks back you leave me till now.

yknw what forget it. sick and tired of this i know i have better things to do. time makes everything fade besides im not so sure anymore. fxck off

been too long

2010-01-21T20:57:00.002+08:00

i laugh @ this. remembering the holidays sigh. i need the holidays now.

(btw if the co irritates you then close your ears lah. weird kid. -.-)
listening to river flows in you ugh bloody long since the last time i played it. fuckin sad. like, the past......... ok so last year. sigh
twennyfif coming soon like what i told nps m and st. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i dont mean to obsess but its meant to be there to obsess about. i dont even understand this
i admit i keep looking but silly me thinks you're looking too oh well (roll my eyes)
okay im so stupid one of my lungs just burst

k so planned some impt stuff today like night walk and breasty bake-out day during co.
did NOT slack did some basic technique stuffs with my arvin kumar and karthig and yanting. pretty awesome and arvin (if thats how to spell his name) is kinda cute and can sing in a choir.
i think im starting to..... you know.

im not even sure if i should do it. yes or no i dont know argh okay bye. havent eaten lunch with afhksx for so long....

bitter bitch

2010-01-20T23:33:00.002+08:00

pretty cool one that twin showed me. although the ladybug looks like a ladybug gone wrong
i like everything apart from the head though. she looks like a perverted ladybug
this kind of tattoo must hurt hmm.

my eyes are closing in case i dont know. so night wx night you night everyone lets die together in chem.

everybody's in love,

2010-01-20T20:41:00.003+08:00

and yes im jealous. sooooo jealous my eyeballs are dropping out. -.-

gonna do up my crystallisation shit soon. forgot to bring home chem tb. (Y)
duds if you think you guys are funny betting about this kind of thing, i suggest you bet on something easier to like maybe when it's going to rain. -.-
childish like eh, fuckin four-year-olds lol okay enough.

looking for my tiger. dont disturb me. pissed badly.

louboutins

2010-01-20T16:42:00.003+08:00

the song's stuck in my head now coz you remind me just of what the song says.
so i came back early today. like 2.47pm. (Y)
sat outside the door reading coz i've no keys, then realised mom and weiyu were at tiong.
ugh, yeah.

i hate tuesdays and love wednesdays coz tuesdays are long and (STUDY) all through the day.
wednesdays are english bio pe recess maths chinese. some serious (Y) really.

dont want to dye hair again coz i always end up with dyed finger/toenails instead. take me second right toe for example.

like NPN, i wonder if you still read too but i miss you

2010-01-19T21:45:00.001+08:00

WTF MAN CANT BELIEVE YOU HAVE A BLOG

you have got no waist ugh

2010-01-19T17:10:00.004+08:00

in the midst of preparing some stuff psst psst psst no one will know apart from me and im not gonna tell anyway
@ peishan's, passed homework to her and with @NeonPinkNails too.
dads coming over to fetch me later yay hahahahahaha

poa wasnt much of hell today hehheheheheheheheh yesterday almost made me cry though. maths is starting to be mad mad.
(i am shiverin cold)
loads of homework everyday. ugh. ligh bags today! pssst @fatsayz. (wink)
k so yeah see you again bye.

double fugburgers

2010-01-10T18:45:00.001+08:00

when im hungry i fantasize.
right now its about me taking part in a double cheeseburger eating competetion.

pretty old shit

2010-01-10T16:07:00.003+08:00

feel like watching the fourth kind with this group of people. like on kailing's birthday! eight days away isnt it. (Y)

am looking through all my photos on fb. pretty much fun.
looked through my old neoprints previously in the late morning. ahhhhhhhhh nerdness
sundays are pretty got for reminiscing

walked over to queensway with weiyu to meet kenneth the mac man to re-do jonathan's shirt.
no offence but so what? its a letter different?
and you already know that we were going to redo it soon, you just had to wear it for one day of cca orientation but you refused to coz it wasnt your name.
jonathan and jonathon. okaaaaaaay.
fine, we're sorry, here goes your shirt to the tshirt factory to be redone. (N) (N)

okay gonna be pretty busy in the week ahead. (can you believe it'll only be the second week of school tmr)
plenty of tests comin up and we have to paint our art onto art room wall. ~~(Y)~~
art camp coming up soon, helping out in it. lets see if its any fun.
mondays and tuesdays are major hates.

see you again.

NONG TIME NO SEE

2010-01-07T18:08:00.002+08:00

@fatsayz wasnt in school today so classes were pretty cocked up. i paid lots of attention though, forced to.
at @NEOHPEISHAN's now, so ya.
half the co flag is done! or rather 3.5 quarters
pretty exciting afternoon lololololollololol wait i wouldnt describe it like that.

wont be online for quite a long time to come comp isnt fixed (still) and laptop is.... under uh, idk what the word slipped my mind.
gg home soon yayzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz k bye, school pretty awesome these few days but ahem its still the first week of school.

you keep dragging and dragging, dont forget (i wont forget) that if tmr falls through again im gonna just forget the whole thing and implement operation clean break and fucking burn the whole thing. including the envelope. tmr is the last day.

new year resolutions

2009-12-31T22:15:00.004+08:00

well you knocked me hard and knocked me awake without doing that much. thank you.

will be here for the next four hours before bed and i really want to do something meaningful apart from watching the countdown from tv later. (-.-)
feeling a little emotional. maybe its got to do with it being the end of the year

ya. i definitely feel like crying now. *am dying for a
reading twin's blog makes me feel like crying because i think what he posted relates to me too (THANK YOU TWIN I LOVE YOU TOO)
this will be another wordy post i think.

ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bombom's blog inspired me to do the same thing. like summarise my whole year
thats pretty meaningful right. okie dokie.

K LETS SEE. (rubs hands)

january:
started talking about percussion outings which never actually materialised. funny how you can plan and get so excited for things that you know is never going to happen.
and i rmb i was still pretty upset about the whole..... thing. yeah some people might know.
got sick. okay pretty small detail.
got hooked on trial games. ok another trivial one
another pretty emotional month i guess. from what i rmb
OH AH JANUARY. pretty good month i should say but good things dont reall last sometimes ahhaha. good memories though so i'll just keep it with me.
(yeah looking back...... hmm.)
(omg ya actually its a lot. hmm.)
oh quarreled w breasty but made up again.
conclusion: not a bad one. sigh.

february:
like the same as january. zz. yeah i mean seriously. valentines day came... and went. that was my first like, valentines together. im not making sense but im rushing this shit thats why
ahhh feb. another of the month. (fck i can just tear looking at the bloody fxcking posts)
so there goes fab feb.

march:
actually, nothing much. another of those months. srry but yeah. started playing pet society from what i see.
my ceiling...
quarreled w breasty again.
was really a bad month but not that bad.

april:
another one of the mnths. aiyar tsk hahahaha
oh april shows me that all the episodes started happening.
detention for the first time in my life heh
SYF and we got bronze even though we expected silver like badly. pretty teary day for all of us.

may:
okay so it stops here. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
my may 23rd's post stil inspires me.
http://weixiannnnnnnnnn.blogspot.com/2009_05_01_archive.html
upsetting but i got over it hahahahahahaaaaaa see me.

june:
another month.

july:
another month.
i started texting you if i remember correctly.

august:
another month.
still you, on and off.

september:
heh birthday! had a little get-together with all my loves heh. finally dared to get over what i had to. still was you.

october nov december: ~

i lost interest in my own life ahhahaha
kay ten more mins to 2010. i really dont know what to write down for my resolutions.
improve on my life i guess.
i need to study harder too. if i want to apply fr dpa there it goes.
no more distractions hahahahahahahaha omg i finally kan kai le.
no more this and that.

will decide on more when 2010 comes. for now i think im just going to watch the countdown wait for the fireworks pity myself for being so pathetic and cry my heart out and then sleep.

2009 is a pretty upsetting year.
having this kind of end. LOL.
i loved you but i need to forget.

2009-12-31T00:29:00.003+08:00

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erection that lasts for hours

In case of overdose, call your local poison control center at 1-800-222-1222. If the victim has collapsed or is not breathing, call local emergency services at 911.

Symptoms of overdose may include:

agitation
jitteriness
difficulty falling asleep or staying asleep
blank facial expression
drooling
uncontrollable shaking of a part of the body
shuffling walk
sleepiness
coma (loss of consciousness for a period of time)
seizures
irregular heartbeat
fever
dry mouth
constipation

looks like im in deep shit too.
but just to say, dont take this stuff. i think its what caused my muscle spasms.

loud crowd

2009-12-30T22:34:00.003+08:00

i have no pictures to update as usual cause they're over at www.sunflowerdistrict.blogspot.com.
typical day. tmr will be one soon.
im gonna countdown... in my sleep. yes tmr night is going to be nothing.
im not staying awake just cause i THINK something might happen. you're just not that kind of person so i cant trust myself (my heart) with you.
when next year starts at 00:00 hours tmr im gonna forget you, yes you saw correct im gonna forget you.
my new year resolutions are so gonna include you. really dont try to make me believe you're gonna pop it tmr and it has nothing to do with it being the first day of the month.
i dont even believe it myself how can you all. dont understand what you guys are thinking. seriously no brained
if i were to believe in it myself i'd be the biggest tortoise ever on earth. you're just not one for surprises. yup, guess not.
in concl. its just going to be a normal night tmr. watch the fireworks, mope a little, do my pills and bed.

oh yes, the pills.
im not hooked. its not something you can get hooked on. just that i feel uneasy without it. its not the same to flip over on my side and not feel the dizzy jolt.
at least take it this way, the jolt reminds me im still awake so i gotta fall asleep soon. i take it to feel better. not to sleep.
(i dont think i feel better anyway)
i just think im toxicating (or intoxicating i never knew the difference) myself and making myself die quicker idk. whichever way you take it.
life isnt the same bed of roses anymore, it never was anyway right?
aiyar just that nothing is going right now except for.... nothing. nothing is going right
dont bother with The Talk. its not gonna help and you know it. im sorry that im not listening to you but too bad. im sorry i said too bad but really, its too bad.

enough of self pity because i dont deserve it. on a brighter note i got to try a new brand today thanks to @bombom92 (or something)!
@NeonPinkNails @MLMB7 @NEOHPEISHAN bananas (wink wink) if i feel like commiting suicide i will do it tonight.
ikea with @pnpyholyshit @NICOLLLETTE and @NeonPinkNails and @NICOLLLETE's daddy. he is cute.
to @NEOHPEISHAN's after. kinda sad because of some lame revelations -.-

(i still feel damn fucked up after seeing the blog)

(if you're gonna give up on me, just do. i will disappear from your sight instantaneously. i swear with no crossed fingers. in actual fact sometimes i just cant wait to tear away from you all and die. i really wish i could because my mind is actually tied to the fact the 2010's not gonna be a good year and that im gonna die soon anyway. so why not now? just say the words, you know you want to. you know im worse than who you think is condemned. i am a failure and there is no hope for me and you know it. no more ignoring me and playing w your fav son. just kick me ut of the house and let me die on my own. just send me to the girls home and let me kill myself there. or better still kill me with your own hands. i know talking about death like that is not a good thing but i dunno maybe this time it is for me. no more psychology courses nor vetinary science courses, no more universities or going overseas to study, no more mixed babies nope i just cant see myself at 60 years old.
i dunno.
i just feel like it'll be a better end. i feel... suffocated. cooped. im just not your good daughter anymore.)

honestly ( you wont see this but im in the mood for a wordy post and i really dont think anyone will bother to read this)
you were so ready to say yes when i wanted to pass you what i put down on paper for you.
i took three and felt giddy but still took the effort to write them down cause im not good with words. i bet you could tell because i caught up with you three/four times on december the twenty-eighth yet i couldnt get the fucking words out. even if you knew what it was i was going to say it didnt mean that much if i didnt get the right words out
i couldnt. find my tongue, i mean. i could only blush inwardly and feel like a cow-cow-coward and smell your smell and stall for time while i try to find my tongue. (msn is lagging)
well anyway back to the topic. you agreed so readily and i thought for a minute... maybe things might change.
nah im wrong. again. i always am, dont you see?
and i was so happy, happy wx goes to sleep -.- next morning wake up afternoon go out suddenly in the text you say you're out already.
i got into an accident with a trolley. literally. i did.
and on the bus dope wx calls and you say you're at where again? fyl.
and i emo partially fr the rest of the day and now look where i am.
the letter is with @NPS and you wont bother to drop her a text, i know you wont.
you're just not interested.

i can really, really believe that you werent just playing. but somehow i cant bring myself to think that whatever i hope t happen is gonna happen.
i hope by some miracle the papers get blown into your face and you read it and realise actually how it was just for you.
i didnt even bother reading back after i finished it because my head was hurting so badly. i dont trust myself to read back though.

last line: too bad, but i want you.

i feel so empty.

READ THIS:

2009-12-30T17:07:00.011+08:00

I.

AM.

NOT.

ATTACHED.

and wont be for a long time.

nothing is working out so i can forget it and if im gonna call you and you're not gonna pick up then wx you jolly well forget it. fuck you. to the pits of hell.

long time since i posted but im at @NEOHPEISHAN's with @NEOHPEISHAN and @MLMB7. @NeonPinkNails was here too.
i am a farking mess.
stomach is hurting, gonna go out for some fresh air drinks.
fml. i never thought i'd say this but fuck my life to the pits of hell i hope i die soon from all the harmful stuff im taking in.
i think im gonna get brain damage soon.
or maybe my stomach will have hole.
then die of acidic er..... idk what.
going down now. i know this post very very bad. too bad. im bad.

mad at you

2009-12-23T04:50:00.003+08:00

idk what made me go watch it but its been v long since i cried.
watched ne yo's mad from youtube. and it reminded me of, well yeah you
i dont know, its not working out.
4.51am. im not sleeping anymore. meeting the people later @ 8 in school.

edit:
have been thinking a little.
when lets say john A dumps jane A because he finds her irritating, he can only think of all the bad times and it sorta pushes him to break off with her isnt it?
but poor Jane A gets stuck with all the good memories and all the tears. agree?
i think most of the time guys initiate the start to a r/s but they're the ones to break it off. or maybe thats just cause im female

kill kill kill fes

2009-12-22T21:34:00.004+08:00

^ they said they love our tee. at least a chio one said that so yay tank you.

i am happy to the very ultimate max now so dont talk to me least you pop my bubble.
some MAPS* time! hehehehehhehehehehehe peishan will know

episode 2.1: janitor goes mad with happy shitz

2009-12-22T15:10:00.002+08:00

k so 22nd became 21st. oh well.
i think i blew it, but maybe i'd have a chance to get it back. who knows.
non-existent biceps starting to be there. mega arm muscle ache. my palms hurt so much. to the extent that it BURNS. at least feels like it

did i mention my brother's coming to outram? oh well.

i need to stop sleeping late. caught a glance f myself in the mirror and i was like instantly, fuck?
10pm tonight.

the pills making me very, very, very restless today. indeed.

day 2: janitor's bad start to a bad day.

2009-12-22T10:46:00.002+08:00

okay so finally fell asleep at 4+ or something after hours of procrastinating sleep and using the comp and reading back on every last text between us i dont know why.
got to the part where we first watched together. fell asleep at that part unknowingly cause i took five after all.
woke up and looked for phone frantically (morning habits) saw a pop-up from my calendar reminding me bout some appointment i needn't go, and a particular yellow icon at the top of the screen.
at least i thought it was the new text icon. er...
up popped the last text i was reading and i thought it was a new one. 'eh i dreamt of you' and i was like :O. then :\ after i realised it was an old text.

heh, silly me.

maybe, maybe i wouldnt be bothered

2009-12-22T02:11:00.003+08:00

more birthday pictures but havent finished grabbing from @NeonPinkNails' FB.
For my 2010 New Year Resolution Im going to try using capital letters at the front. I can try it out now but it doesnt suit me so scratch that one
guess which one's my phone wallpaper (for now)? lucky guesser wins a cruise ticket.

phone vibrated and for like a nanosecond i really thought it was who i thought i was. then i went like, nah impossible. then, there might be a possibility what. then i decided to climb to the bag and retrieve the phone.
its not who i thought it was so lets breathe out.

i cant even be bothered to search through the one mil and one thou and one hundred arriving flights. how more bothered can i get about one text. come on wx you are being increasingly irritating and goddamn stupid and useless (oops i used it again) and yup prolly just fxck off to sleep already instead of waiting up for something thats not gonna happen now

day 1.5: janitor pissed off badly

2009-12-22T01:54:00.002+08:00

there is a whole fxcking list of arrivals from 00:00hrs, today, till 23:59hrs later in the night.
im not gonna continue searching. there's got to be like a mil more flights.
i'll just wait. if you've got the sincerity you'd text. although i dont think you will

maybe tmr wont be such a good day after all.
(reading the h-so-famous love story of all time now cause im a bit slow w/o internet access for few days.)
(dont piss me off or i sweep you fxcking _____ with my magic broom.)

somebody help me before 3AM?

2009-12-22T00:07:00.005+08:00

^ HTC Tattoo this can be my tattoo. like yeah my Tattoo. cause danielle says its cute or something and she wants it or something (but im not trying to spite you dear) AND the little monster hiding at the back IS cute after all...
^ HTC SNAP Non Camera has no camera. but it's qwerty keys are slighty larger than someone, SOMEONE'S E63 ma hor? or E62? forgot.

^ HTC Touch2 idk, maybe cause teeter ball on peishan's phone is fun. and it IS kind of pretty, HTC phones i mean... never realised till peishan had one congrats PS!
^ Sony Ericsson W995 im just trying to give keypad/slider phones a chance but i might break it in half.
^ Sony Ericsson SATIO 'cause it is bloody red. actually it is bordeaux. desperate attempt at red phones again

^ Sony Ericsson AINO cause its 8.1MP and it looks........... weird. kinda desperate.
^ samsung omnia pro b7320 cause thats the first phone i set eyes on in singtel's shop in the singtel building and it caught my attention gleaming from the display racks with its bronze........ shan't carry on ya get it.

^ samsung omnia pro b7330 cause it looks almost the same as B7320. hmm.

^ blackberry bold 9700. cause karyn says its s-e-x-a-y so sexy.

touchscreen phones:
pros/ still easy to text/call when hands are dirty (happy toilets painting's experience)
cons/ people say easier to spoil, i also dk what. cant text in class too.

qwerty:
pros: idk. chio?
cons: my fingers fat. plus in class cant text properly unless i practice 10 hours everyday.

keypad: i need a new change. sick of keypads.

day 1: janitor gone mad

2009-12-21T23:39:00.006+08:00

janitor gone mad is a game. tmr is day two lets see what happens to janitor wx.
janitor danielle janitor nicolette and janitor peggy today start with same topic. reason is simple: spring cleaning is some mad shit

i think tmr will be 'DAY 2: JANITOR GETS A NEW PHONE'
which is not untrue. because

weiyu is getting his result tmr. like the results to whichever school he's going (fingers crossed)
and mom is bringing me to the shops tmr to look at the phones. if anything appeals to me (which is not likely) i can start texting again tmr. will text all my new number.

which means have to re-hookup number to gladlycast. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

HOTEL MOTEL HOLIDAY INN

2009-12-21T14:22:00.002+08:00

i have a sudden urge to change weixiannnnnnnnnn.blogpsot.com to tigerscry.blogspot.com
or
change my twitter name. no ideas for new twitter name though.
cleaning out artroom today lets pray there arent any cockroaches. or lizards.

kept blacking out last night. which is a nice feeling. knotty heart.

tonight will be five pill night again. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

mary had a little meh, little meh, little meh

2009-12-20T00:38:00.005+08:00

tell me honestly if there's a similarity among this two beings. apart from the two ears two eyes one nose one mouth and tongue thing.

looking at ****'s blog i realise how stupid i was. oh yeah i learnt another word to describe myself for you: ULTIMATEFXCKINGUSELESSTOTHEMAX
i feel so hurt. i mean its stupid cause theres nthing but saying you'll ____ __ ____ __ _____ and seeing that there are so many ____ and ______ girls over there i highly, highly doubt it.

i am angry now. maybe you can just go fuck some ___ w___e older than ___ by _ ____ and maybe i wont even care heartless bastard. ok that just slipped out of nowhere.

nothing is going nowhere. false hopes. i dont even know what im trying to get out but anyhow.
i'll prolly just keep it in first

maybe it is almost the same colour. almost.

disgusting maniac

2009-12-19T23:56:00.002+08:00

and prbably because i have walked for almost the entire day, my right leg is aching the shit out of me and im in a very cranky mood what with achy legs and failing internet connections and laggy comps. honestly i think you wouldnt want to irritate me now -.- trip to the a****** and back with @MLMB7 @NEONHPEISHAN and @NeonPinkNails today has been nice i dont deny althugh some bad reminders did come through. like twenty second/december, like some guys with their new phones and unlimited while i am stuck with creditless chipped phone, like feeling useless (again), being unable to lift the mood for a little while, and i think god is sending me more messages, not including the iphone one. 'confessions of a serial dater' and the very annoying but nice show on tv makes me breathe hard and i dont know why -.- i have a lot of ideas in my head that's all going nowhere. i have no idea why im typing in one line.

if you're gonna be this fickle-minded, i honestly can say i CANT. STAND. YOU. just another typical heartbreaker. why cant you just stick to ne choice and actually STICK. to it. seeing whats happening makes me nauseous -.- its been like the 123456th time already and i say, please dont let it happen again :\

any way, why does nt any one be lieve me when i say im les bian?
im not judging or trying to insult anyone dont get me wrong.

at the a******, i realise you were there too, actually. only im four days late and three days early.

dug-up-pics

2009-12-19T23:26:00.004+08:00

2009-12-16T01:26:00.000+08:00

miss youz.

red-nosed reindeer

2009-12-15T20:40:00.002+08:00

is that big enough?

bit of a useless day. talked to siling for a bit then decided to get some popcorn from downstairs to watch new moon online -.- (didnt work out, btw. popcorn finished before movie started)
gr8 im sick. hope to bring it down before it goes worse. 37.8degrs.
~~yeah i do miss you a little~~
i hope time will fly. lets see.

calico.

2009-12-15T03:58:00.003+08:00

does your heart melt just looking at her.

just imagine. i got so hyped up over a random text from you because it might mean anything and now i cant sleep.
i really dont want you to leave, im sorry but i dont.

i think i love you.

all coming out, no

2009-12-15T02:09:00.000+08:00

something is wrong with blogger in draft but too lazy to switch back to blogger, have a lot on my mind again but dont know where to start. maybe with turning on the lights.

the lights are still not on but im going to continue anyway.

maybe i dont really open up cause im afraid of getting judged like what neonpinknails says. which is true, i dont. who does, only thick skinned ones dont mind -.- doesnt it hurt? i mean having t suffer fxcking remarks frm people who sometimes dont even have the rights to comment.

i left this page for too long doing other shit. lol. maybe im starting to get hooked on the little white stuff i know its bad i know it spoils my tummy but i cant sleep, honestly. this is as close as i can get to sleeping pills, parents say sleeping pills do nothing good for the bod

yeah i sleep, sure. but with all the spammage of dreams and waking up in the middle of the night to check messages, who wants to sleep anymore. and not all the dreams are sweet-flowers-in-the-meadow kind.
ultimately, you were the root of all these. can i say that i can actually put you aside and concentrate on other more important stuff? no.
first day after the chalet i wake up feeling groggy and get dragged out feeling numb. numb i felt, yes, but i still kept thinking of you.
anyone get this so far? like you feel so numb like you can just lie flat anywhere you are.
that was me, except that my mind was numb with images of you. and how i beat myself up inside because of the regret of not having fxcking ballz to ask such a simple thing
i've told myself countless times to do it and yet again.

and i just remembered you're leaving in a few hours. fuck the timings.
honestly if it wasnt so early i would have snuck to the airport to watch you secretly and cry.
please really think it over there. im waiting for your reply.

more pictures cuz i found more heartmelting ones

2009-12-14T21:14:00.004+08:00

caught in your romance

2009-12-14T20:08:00.003+08:00

i said the pictures will be up here they are.

2009-12-14T18:48:00.001+08:00

i repeat, i will not blog until i have rekindled my interest.

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii, Danielle here :) Hehehehehe, Yayyyyyyyyyyy, staying at @tigerscry's house for dinner, then off i go home to watch _____ . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, Guess I'm going home sooooooooooooooonz :) Hehehehehehehe, after dinner, :) Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. OKAY SHE'S BACK :D

okay is me again. my brother has a shirt with the picture of a baby with piercings.
anyway.
okay i will not blog. i will tweet my mind out of my brains.
1. i hope abfhksx will talk to me soon about cycling cause my phone money no more. (62723117!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
2. i hope i can go out with smkjjkt soon before december holidays end.
3. ji dan chao ya dan.
4. tomorrow, go outz. not cut hairz.
5. YOU LA! tomorrow go sentosa play.

D: your ass go sentosa yourself. i dont care. peishan and me dont want to go with you. bleahhh :P i love jansen, . yay. :) HAHAHAH, OKAY BYE. EH NO NO NO NO NO NO OKAY YAYYYY. LOVEZZZZZZZZZZZZ. HAHAHA OKAY BYEBYE :)

edit:/
wx again. hi. anyway. out tomorrow! it will be sentosa i tell you lol weird kids.
i will upload a lot of pictures that im gonna grab from fb now i tell you cause blog too plin. okay bye.

you lick my shit you go, dude

2009-12-11T20:57:00.003+08:00

wont be blogging for idk how long more cuz i lost interest maybe when i actually feel like blogging.

anyway concerts over, hks malaysians are back where they came from and i have a fxcking henna thats gonna fade in days and im going to little india to do it again and tmrs ivan's chalet happy birthday ivan by the way and i wanna go cycling still and i wonder when we can go.

i will text you all soon.

idk when i started texting you today idk idk i felt like idk.

you screw my mind big time always.

ice cream buffet w girls @ udders tday. found out monochrome makes henna look like tattoo. "are you a fudder? (fan of udder)" "lick. not bite."

yuck knock you down

2009-12-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

sooooooo fxcking disgusting i cant stand it, lets see if you're involved in the thingy next year. i curse you fall off and drop down stage and have the skirt r whatever fly over your head and show the whole world your grandmother knickers.

2009-12-01T03:14:00.000+08:00

that kept me from sleeping. oh and the skitzo shit.

fat man coming through

2009-12-01T02:19:00.000+08:00

you made me realise that i dont have to necessarily follow that path i see in front of me blindly just cuz there's a path. you made me see that eh there's actually alternatives. if i were to follow my own confused heart you'll soon see how i screw the whole bloody thing up. hesitating about twelfth, then fifteenth, then both twelfth and fifteen, i know that's gonna get me nowhere. im not saying your words showed me what to do but it did actually show me that it isnt all that complicated like i put it out to be. i dont know why either maybe im just plain useless but i cant help it. this is me. faith is shaking but you said i gotta keep having faith. i doubt i can hold on any longer and for once, i think i dont care if i let go/** lets go. really..? because somehow time went by so quickly i dont even give a damn anymore. your quotes and your words made me ashamed to even claim of the feelings that cant even be compared to anything. nope none. if people put me next to you and compare me to you, im not even a little full stop. what it is for me is habit. yours is true feelings. never knew i could hurt like this but hey eventually it passes, just like anything else.

the night when i poured every single thing to you i didnt feel a single thread of regret. the night when i dug the whole tragic-heart-breaking day of shamelessness to you i felt shattered. the moment when i fell asleep nothing mattered anymore except for catching the perfect dreams i wanted -.- see for how long it pierces me? not long.

msn is not. working. how i want. it. to.

excuse me cough bug coming through please make way

2009-12-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

re: title

super duper bu yao face.

TSHIRT MAD

2009-11-30T22:48:00.002+08:00

i tell you tonight dont need sleep liao.
just pay attention to www.twitter.com/tigerscry .

ooooooooooooooopsie daisy

2009-11-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

can i say yesterday was a long but good day? yes i can because it's my day.
i guess i understood what it meant by not expecting more, yes i can.
i remember that if you tell yourself you fucking can thing.
friday today and tmr will be my break yay then next week will be hell. i vow to familiarise myself with the drum solo part latest by tuesday.
whole of next week spam co. should be doing my hair next week if the great queen provides me with the moolaaaaaaaaaah
if i tell myself i fuckin can. YES I CAN

last night was revelation night to the core (spam HAHA)
i never thought it'd all come out but perhaps its a good thing. yea a good thing.
fifteenth might be hell. twelfth mightnt even hold any more meaning.
fifteenth really sounds like hell so good luck to me, rightttttttttttt.

tweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet peace.

you go, you got it girl

2009-11-26T18:56:00.001+08:00

i take it back.

i miss you. but still i hate you.

HEAR YE, HEAR YE. LOWERING UR SELF-ESTEEEEEEEEEEEM

2009-11-26T18:48:00.000+08:00

my neck's stiff. i know i mentioned that already.
uneventful day, i think i have a thing for guys with that angmoh accent ;)
last night till now = nothing. so this is what i get for obsessing and being so vexed over for DAYS?
thank you. very much, i must say.

sucha disgrace to us. fourteen-year-old females, to be specific.

not my best friend?

2009-11-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

i realise here is dead so im here to update hi.
peishan called when i was sleeping this morning YAY i shockz dao.
i realise another thing: i cant text her but i can call her and I HAVE HUNDRED BUCKS WORTH OF CREDIT to talk to her own rightz! \m/
kay gonna call her now bye.

nice legs, daisy dukes

2009-11-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

the bitch's @ baibai dinner. LOL
co yesterday, open house today. if we tell ourselves we fucking can, you guys can f. off
damned fun esp when the whole random drumming thing started.

skipped F.O #1 #2 #3 #4 #5 #6 and watched #7 cause that's the whole point.
righty, gonna go downstairs now -.-

my leg bloody can i please have a blood transfusion so the mozzies can stay away

skip three bars.

2009-11-17T18:21:00.000+08:00

more pictures here

since november ninth:

tuesday: co

wednesday: forgot

thursday: co

friday: results for streaming stuff

saturday: jiawei's chalet (pictures ^)

sunday: forgot

monday: picnic w breasty + breasty-mom

(today) tues: co

kay. that sums it up

health conference tmr BLOOOOOOOOOOODY HELL I WANT GO CO. (unbelievable but.....)

heard clique outing soon :):)

kay then bye. going school website kpo see who same class as me.

smoke-ammonia-dye-stink-quit-eww-smelly.

2009-11-09T14:17:00.000+08:00

@ breasty's again heheheheheheheheheheheheheheheh that explains why im blogging. anyway.
fcking did something i swore i wouldnt for the rest of my life. hmmmmmm.
anyhow, i stink now and i ran out of impulse. random.
the bitch is bathing now and im waiting and so yeah okay bye.

a smile crumbled like a fault line, mine.

2009-11-08T16:17:00.000+08:00

cant blog. but can twit.

BECAUSE MY COMP DIE BUT PHONE HAVENT DIE.

see you when my comp revives. if it will.

ELECTRIC BLUE HOT PINK NEON ORANGE BRIGHT YELLOW.

2009-11-02T22:56:00.001+08:00

to do for today. slash this week:
1. mail breasty's chio pictures
2. google human resources w/ psychology (SP) and psychology (TP) WOOHOO \M/
~~3. blog~~
~~4. facebook~~
~~5. bloghop~~
6. start MSK
7. resume my knitting (wth)

k
some meeting in the morning with 15 other people. streaming stuff that left me really really really (x123456) frustrated.
rang up a lot of people (not really) and decided to stick to literature, chem/bio, poa and business instead of pure sciences. influenced by someone big.
(how do anyone expect me to talk to my dad/mom about this when they seriously know nothing at all.)
thats one.

co after that.
two.

to breast's place after co to bathe. change then went PS.
met her mom there last min then had pastamania. rofl
three. (she bought bread for me. my mom said it was really nice. thanks LOL)

bus home. fricking pricking cold. i dont understand singapore weather AT ALL
four.

slept till night. here i am, bye

bottom and top lip, 'bout to get a sugar feast

2009-11-01T21:49:00.001+08:00

home, finally. i canNOT stand the weather outside.

blogging is beginning to seem uninteresting. night bye

stuck in thought

2009-10-31T21:21:00.002+08:00

it sucks to know.

party-p-party-party-p-party people

2009-10-31T20:55:00.001+08:00

blogger giving me problems again cant post pictures.
pinky nailssssssssssssss
holidays yay yay yay. i have nothing to do.
VP said to pick up a new hobby and guess what! my mom is teaching me how to knit HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH total win already.

two months of holiday, \m/ best of the best.
parents meeting ytd, weeeet teacher can actually make my results out to be better than i thought it was.
actually i didnt think it was any good. ohwell.

cafe world copy restaurant city, thats what i think.
somehow. going to play anyhow, bye bye bye bye bye

2009-10-28T23:51:00.000+08:00

If you had to…

1. If you HAD to get a tattoo, where would you get it?
somewhere where it isnt obvious cuz my dad said as long as he couldnt see it, he close one eye.

2. If you HAD to dye your hair a color what color would it be?
black?

3. If you HAD to get a piercing (THAT ISN’T YOUR EARS) what would you pierce?
my tongue lol.

4. If you HAD to change your name, what new name would you choose?
i dont want to.

1. Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
one person.

2. Would you move anywhere else if you could?
somewhere with cooler weather.

3. If you were given the chance to go to Paris, would you go?
consider.

4. If you were given 10 million dollars to keep, what would you do?
be very, very suspicious cuz nobody usually gets money like that

Let’s say..

3. Let’s say you had to eat a live tarantula for $1,000…would you?
nope. out of your mind

4. Let’s say you could star in any movie (made or in the works) what movie?
wall e? stupid answer

1. What makes your bedroom unique?
er, there is a bowl of noodles in front of me now?

4. What’s your favorite season of the year?
i dont really know.

5. Do you like cheese?
certain kinds?

2009?

1. Have you had your birthday yet?
yeah.

2. Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2009?
nope guess not.

3. Are you still in the same job?
no job. yet.

4. Is your favorite color the same color?
i forgot my fav colour @ start of year.

5. Have you got the same style/color hair?
kinda, i guess.

6. Have you bought a NEW car this year?
lets see. hmmmmmmmmmm.

7. Anything exciting happen this year?
dont know.

8. Have you been involved with the police this year?
dont know.

10. Is your best friend still your best friend?
guess not?

11. Got any tattoos or piercings this year?
:D no.

12. Had a haircut this year?
yup.

13. Been in a hospital this year?
visit someone.

15. Been on a vacation this year ?
kinda?

16. Been kicked out of a public place this year?
forgot la

Do you…
• lick yourself: if i have something edible dribble down my hands or something, yes.

• whine a lot: lol when frustrated or whatever.

• yell a lot: kinda.

• want to die: a few times :O

• wear dark colors: prefer white cuz the weather can make you melt...?

• dye your hair: nope. will get cancer. (whoooops)

Have you ever…
• worn rainbow: lo no?

• talked on the phone for over 3 hours: yup.

• left the country: yeah.

• flashed anyone: -.-

• had a party with over 30 people: yup.

• stolen something: eh, i think so :D

• caught something on fire: YES LOL

Last person…
• you talked to: mom.

• you hugged: kailing LOL she was scared of the roaches i think.

• you called: oh dad!

• to call you: dad again

Next person…
• you’ll talk to: dad. he's waking me up tmr.

• you’ll hug: anybody who makes me really happy tmr :)

• you’ll call: sleep.

• you’ll get a call from: ?

Back to basics
• what is your birth name? weixian? low.

• what is your birthday day? fourth sept.

• how tall are you?: one six five i think.

• shoe size?: seven or eight? im not exactly sure zzz

• brothers/sisters?: one older one younger both brothers.

• favorite colour? red FTW

• soda? sprite or seven up.

• ice cream?: strawberries i think.

In the last 48 hours…
• cried?: nope. i know i almost did just now when i really thought we were stuck inside school for the night.

• missed someone?: not really

• yelled at someone?: ya. cuz i was freaked out.

• been online: now?

• kissed someone?: no. air-kiss jiu got :)

• hugged someone?: not really a hug i guess.

• last thing you ate?: noodles and fried egg.

• talked to someone about something important? not really

Finally..
• who is sitting next to you? please. nobody.

• favorite sport?: after today, captains ball :):)

• been in a plane?: yup.

• broke someones heart?: hope not.

• kicked your cat for the hell of it? no cat. YET.

you always know what to say

2009-10-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

just reached home. came by to say hi (HI)
bathe, eat and im going to sleep alr (i know will fat lah zzz)
i swear eyes are closing already

big day in was fun. so much better than last year.
i loved cap's ball (2/7 \m/ FOREVER) lol lol lol lol in your faces.
* that knock on your head wasnt intentional, people apologise alr you still stare what stare. *&^%$#%^&
seriously ah, (some) sec ones this year.......... i understand why people hate sec ones too. i feel irritated to remember that i was once an annoying sec one too. oh well.
yay, noodles.
art exhibition for open house tmr, PRAY HARD that when we all reach sch tmr the paintings are all still on the wall.
gonna be another late night, bye.

fucked up

2009-10-26T16:45:00.001+08:00

peishan and xinhui are too too noisy. sigh.
byebye.

http://twitter.com/tigerscry

2009-10-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

helena, ^ look @ the title hehehehehehehehehehehe

middle finger on right hand and thumb on left hand painnnz.

wedding lunch in malaysia this afternoon. er......... i prefer sg weddings.
omg feels like ten thousand years since i logged in to blogger.

the bride was cutesy anyway.
(shit totally unrelated)

meeting MY PEISHAN tmr morn, grabbing some breakfast before dad drives us to school.

seven mins to travel from TBP to sch, two mins wait for lift, one min to reach staff room.
MUST arrive @ 7:00:00AM.
MY PEISHAN you bettwe pray you wake up on time muackz.
muackz to all too yummmm kay night.

yawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwn

2009-10-23T12:37:00.001+08:00

normally sleep @ 11.44pm = still can manage to wake up in the morning.
lasty nighty sleep @ 11.44pm. this morning, cannot. wake. up.
lol managed to in the end.
HI FARHANA shes beside me. @ lab now. i hear a lot of noises, brain cant process from where and whom.

toilet painting again later on lei. i think will v late?.
oh my sky. i will hate those who kick the toilet doors for the rest of my EXISTENCE.
i forgot my twitter. breatheeeeeeeeee.

silly boy, i think i've got a thing for you

2009-10-20T20:53:00.005+08:00

love is a beautiful red rose given for no reason. love is when you find yourself spending every single wish on him. sigh.

twitter noob lol.

2009-10-19T23:07:00.001+08:00

i really went to make twitter sia, cos of H and P. but now it looks a bit stupid.
anywayyyyy, nighty night. i hate facebook and achy legs.

i'd like to make myself believe.

2009-10-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

DPSW = Uno outing today. met up w S & P before going over to D's. fail @ taking buses.
PS, then raffles, all fail @ hunting for dresses :( back to played with all the dresses over @ danielle's.
dslr and polaroids, a lot a lot! HAHAHAHAHHAHA
(pictures, babe!)
legs ache until cannot sia. :( :(
back to PS to get shoes, then accompanied ps take bus. cabbed home.
sighhhhhhhhhh

toilet time tomorrow. yay.
BTW MY HOROSCOPE TODAY. OMG.

Virgo (8/22-9/23)
Monday, October 19
With today's new moon, you might be more preoccupied with your money and how you want to spend it just now, and that's fine. Think about taking on a part time job or find another way to make a few extra dollars. You won't want to miss out on all the fun stuff that's coming up in the next few months. Buy something that makes you look great.

listen as the crowd would sing

2009-10-18T00:14:00.004+08:00

i spotted this little girl, no older than primary five, staring at me during lunch this afternn.
she gives me this look like how i used to look at older girls when i was young.
the "i wanna be grown up now too" look. smth like that la.
and i thought, she wouldnt even be happy if she were this age now.
how complicated life's been of late. cant imagine how it'd turn out, two or five years later.
i doubt if she knows my life, she'd still wanna be me.
anyhow, i'd gladly trade my life with a kindergartener's anyday. just give me the date and time.

feeling in the mood & cant sleep, so here y' go, little paragraph for any names that pop up in my head. this gon' be a long post in the middle of the night. im weird.

size of paragraph and order of names dont mean anything. like i said the names just pop up.

A&G
sweet (: im happy cuz i thought few weeks ago, things started to improve right. i feel really bad cuz i thought i could juggle the whole friends-all-over-the-place thing during the bbq but in the end, it was more of ME all over the place and i couldnt spend much time around the clique. shit ass sorry. i was midway through a letter for all of you but never got the chance to finish it all. zzz.

amanda this is a bit too late already, yep, but thank you for your pretty drawing of my 'daughter' and your very pretty handwriting letter (: i liked being in the same group as you during art coz i can talk random stuffz with you and shoot rayner (HAHAHA) and being in the same group as you = good good art. im v sorry about your birthday this & last year. sighz. tq for being there, i suddenly rmb you touching my hair & comforting me when i was upset in class one day about stuff i'd rather not mention again. :)
binbin your letter of advice/encouragement that you wrote to me for the C4L thing, it surprised me coz i didnt think you'd write one to me. tq (: your letter somehow motivated me to study leh, true (; im not close to you, but things are improving, no? i want to get to know you better soon, muackz :) you could be my best silent mate HEHEHE
farhana most recent memory of you & me = singapore idol. HAHAHHAHAHA i kept to my words, i really dont watch sg idol anymore yknw. too silly right hahahahahah but y' must still watch and tell me who's out and all :O when it comes to the finals then i go watch hehhheheheheh then can bet with you again who will win who will out. this aside, thanks for being there & loving me (you do right! :S) i love both your green letters you gave to me for C4L too. i'll never forget the tall mate with the green shell of a bag i have (: muackz, i will write letter to you soon heh. thanks for both your 'i love weixian hardcore's too!
helena yeap, i cant believe you're going to be fifteen. i cant believe im going to be fifteen too. i miss the days we sleep camwhore dance sing eat laugh draw text chat in class last year too (: life's turning complicated (idk how many times i've complained about it alr) but you were there to guide me through it cuz you're older than me by seven months and HAHAHAHAHA thank you, for being there too. always 'here there and everywhere' (: for texting me back and lulling me to sleep when i used to think too much and get upset before bedtime, for rushing down on the 22nd of may, for always staying close, around me. for scolding me when you thought i deserved it, i admit you opened my eyes and woke me up so i became a better person. lol you sound like god now. bwahahahahahahah love you ttm. muackz.
kailing i agree bout the part where you said you thought you 'bonded with me a lot and the whole clique is closer' (: prolly cuz of the time we had in the mornings in school before the class opened. i used to think you dao, but i realised the opposite (: i didnt use to talk to you bout my probs but few weeks back, when things really got to my head, i told you first cuz you were the first person i saw in the mornings :) tq for advising me, really. i like you as a friend too (: cant wait to continue painting toilet doors with you HAHAHAH sounds like fun and dirtyness. OH and thank you, BIG TIME, for using turp to help clean my hair :) i owe you!
sharon i liked your birthday letter too cuz it was colourfel and naturally, gr8. (: i like it when you advise me too, you know. i seldom confide in you but when i do, whatever you say helps me mostly. thanks, for that (: i love your unique screaming, but tone it down a little :) i have a bad feeling you'll scream a lot on tuesday while painting man. i dont know why. please dont okay. :) :) muackz.
xinhui i guess we arent as close now, but that doesnt matter cuz you're still mine >:} i loved your 'episode' present, you cant believe how touched i was while i read it that very night. yup, i dont cry when im touched so ya. too bad. you moved me coz i dont even remember some events from the book. AND YOU REMEMBERED. i think thats real mean of me. but yknw, your book reminds me of E V E R Y little thing that happened to us :) like that quarrel we had last year that i dont even have a memory of. you used to counsel me, you forced me to talk to him when i was so troubled and you made me cry on your shoulders. im so used to crying on your shoulders that now i cant even cry properly without your shoulders. (i used 'your shoulders' three times in two sentences) thank you, for YOUR SHOULDERS HAHAHAHAHA im sorry i worried you, that day. im sorry i didnt remember our stuffz, thank you for penning them down so i'd remember them forever. for just talking to me. i dont think i'd actually be the me i am now if you werent here (: i almost went in the wrong directions a few times but you pushed my back on track again. muackzzzzzzzz, xinhui the eyeless who cant camwhore cuz she has no eyes ;)

peishan you're texting me now when i feel alone, thanks for that. you were there that day too, double thanks. i can never finish this list of stuffz i can thank you about but eww, will be too gross. too cheesy i guess. i dont think you like it either hahahahahah i miss talking to you too sweetie. i'd glady forgo everything now (i think!) to go back to the past, like how we used to talk about everything under the sun and walking to school from your place and alllllllll. memories never fade. i love you, peishan the htc user. heheheheheheeeeeee

suting you called me and your contact appeared as 'SUTING the topshop bimbo' (: danielle inspired me on that one, i think you're the same in peishan's and danielle's phone too. there were some misunderstanding few weeks back, i guess, but time alone with you solved all right :) remember that you and i swore to be truthful with each other hehehehe i bet thats what improved our relationship the most. love the times where i got to be alone with you lah bitch.

danielle im not that close with you anymore but at least we talk to each other occasionally and you talk to me when you had problems right (: im sorry for the times when i pissed you off, i know that makes it a lot. you piss me off too, and we've had our fair share of conflicts and arguments. in fact, people are bored of us quarreling already hehehehe but we always make up after that right :) rmb the roommates and pug promise hor you my pug's future lays in your hands lmao, love you breasty, more than you can imagine.

abby your name randomly popped up yes. HAHAHAH i dont know you well enough i guess, but past few weeks i talked to you, i realized you know a lot of secrets of mine :) keep them safe thanks. fun to talk to you in the night until your house phone die. HAHAHAHA fun to talk to you and danielle but it wasnt funny when yall gang up to bully me lmao. heh heh i guess there were some stuffz mentioned that i wouldnt tell anyone else (anybody who wants to know, dont bother asking cuz i wont ever tell) sigh. i guess i owe it to no true friends that i got to know you? :)

'merrio' im glad we're out of each other's lives now i guess. to tell the truth, like some people i've told this to, even though i was really happy, i sorta regret the past. i enjoyed myself thoroughly w your company but all good things come to an end, :) silly stuff i did after the break up, i regret them all. the letters, pictures, everything, i reckon they're reduced to ashes / thrown away. well, it should. i deleted the pictures on my phone and all the texts in a moment of fury (?) but i can say that i dont regret it, not really. i still have the pictures in my computer, but why not keep them as memories. :) thanks for all that you given, even the hurtful times too. i grew up. you made me realise a lot of things :) sorry for being selfish, demanding. lol, okay i have nothing to say. maybe continuing this way's the best. all th best t you :)

smiley :) i decided to add your name too, after all. heheheheheh. just for the fun of it. didnt realise at first that we'd still stay in contact after all. anyhow, you still make me laugh once in a while and its quite cool for a friend like you. exams are over so i cant say gl/buck up for the exams, sigh. kay well, im going to sleep too. btw, i dreamt of you as a vampire last night. shit scary.

thats the lot for now, im continuing tmr i guess :) i havent forgotten gmc, yknw.

when your heart sinks

2009-10-17T21:51:00.001+08:00

"there's nothing really left to say unless you're gonna tell me something you know i wanna hear."

sigh.

i got that rock n roll, that future roll

2009-10-17T21:41:00.000+08:00

mugging everyday till late = O V E R
LOL IDK WHATS WRONG WITH ME

how great it feels to sleep early AND wake up late.
hehehehehehehehehehehe, im dying of bliss already. yum.
now i know what they mean by feeling blissed when you see the familiar name pop up on your screen.
when am i going to see you again :O

toilet painting yesterday.
had paint in my hair, list of thanks to amanda for untangling my hair, sharon for washing and untangling, kailing for untangling and washing paint off my hair with turps. hurray hurray MUACKZ
waited from 650 to 745 outside of school for dad, i cant believe how dark it is @ 730.
danced & sang (when there was sorta nobody) to entertain myself.
kidding bout the dancing part lah.

hearts (on fire)

2009-10-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

one sentence to summarise my feelings during maths paper(s):
OMG I ACTUALLY CAN DO THIS PAPER MAN I CANT BELIEVE IT!!!!! (exults inwardly)

about two or three questions in paper one = same questions in mock exam paper, im so glad i woke up @ 10 last night to dig out those papers to re-do. omg omg omg cant believe my (our) luck.
paper two, i could do it but im not thaaaaaat confident.

unconfirmed date with peishan on october thirtieth... (wink wink.)
confirmed date w danielle on christmas. wth?

kk gotta go type out my notes omg its 9 alr?! i wanted to sleep @ 10 leh! bye bye bye.

seven hundred and fourth, still counting on

2009-10-14T22:45:00.002+08:00

i wonder what will happen t me tmr. i've studied maths the least. so gr8 right i know

shit ass scared. really those kinda, teeth-chattering sorta scared i guess. i wonder what would happen tmr, really.

it didnt look hard.

2009-10-14T18:21:00.000+08:00

so history is screwed. kay. i accept that.
dozing off throughoutthe whole paper. guess i should prolly turn in @ about 10 tonight or smth

played with the cat for a bit after exams tday before leaving for gwc w peishan.
(those who want t bully the poor cat, f off lah bully somemore and you'll be a cat in your next life.)
the cat's turned vegetarian! caught it eating grass. good thing too, cheap and healthy. organic.

ate & got 'lectured' by the seventy-year-old auntie who works somewhere there for a good thirty minutes.
legs were aching by the time we escaped.
xin and danielle came. ate and kinda studied maths @ mac. i did two qns all by myself & got them correct ^^ ^^

maths tmr. gl gl gl. :/

oh oh oh oh

2009-10-14T00:11:00.003+08:00

this person = hardcore.

i realise i have an hour more to 1am. 1am's been my bedtime for yesterday too.
i think thats a bad thing coz i kept dozing off today while doing chinese paper. was jolted awake by one of rayner's sneezes
i hope i like, can wake up tmr man. si liao.
still writing notes for history. amazingly im still at chapter 7 even though i started @ 10pm.

tired sia. im back @ pet society, merrio's keeping me company and staring at me study now. sigh.

omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.
omg i can make it.

i lie a little more, baby im helpless

2009-10-13T21:40:00.002+08:00

finally got my pictures like i said. have waited one month and nine days alr right.
chinese paper was..... wow.
down the hill with rayner & bh after clearing books and stuff from the cupboard.

i told mom im pretty confident about history. scarly come out i die. (touch wood)

waiting for the study list from xinhui~ zzz i thought emails came in fast.

studying maths tmr. lets hope all goes well for tmr, tmr's tmr and tmr's tmr's tmr.
lets hope nobody finds my secret stash of textbooks before i retrieve it tmr.

i need a little good luck to get me by this time
and we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again.

f***tard is his middle name

2009-10-13T00:00:00.013+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY #17.

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

[removed], coz i realised i can never do enough. only breasty know what i mean right :') oh well. happy birthday anyway.

for some reason i cant explain

2009-10-12T22:37:00.001+08:00

still busy ~~looking through birthday photos & waiting for your text~~ studying half-history for tmr's tmr and half-chinese for tmr.

oooh. when i say i want my birthday photos....... it came. this shows how efficient dad is

she's everything you want and everything you cant have ;)

2009-10-12T19:30:00.004+08:00

you realise i got no pictures to blog right cuz my dad havent give me my bday pictures yet. bloody hell

study with peishan xinhui and jiamin @ gwc. i think i managed to get at least some history into my head

going t continue history @ 8 again.

wonder if can tackle tmr's chinese. hmmmm.

gl yall. hates to those people who've had the lasts of their paper today. ;) (kidding)

SPAGHETTI LAMBORGHINI T_!

2009-10-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

you better make urself free on monday afternoon baby spaghetti (:
i dont want to start again but i can express my irritation at what you did.
meet me and i'll show you just how much you can hate us.

see ya. :) :)

dizZzZzZzZzzZzzzzzy

2009-10-10T21:37:00.003+08:00

im tryin not t tell you, but i want t,
but scared of what you'd say

out with titmate (LOL) 'round afternoon today. pretty much sucks when i cant contact anybody. (no credit phone)
didnt manage to study like i planned (-.-) down to meet hao.
'pro photographers' spam pictures then off to gwc to grab some icecream :) & the river behind after that.
slacked, then back.

daily scope says i'd have the energy to stay up tonight. hmmmmmmm.
can study through the night yay. tuesday.

i can do it, right >:/

wear them apple bottom, wear them apple bottomz honey

2009-10-08T21:37:00.001+08:00

the 24 hours would've been up if i'd not picked up that call and waited for 6 more hours. i thought the 24-hour thing was still in effect but you suddenly called and said it was only 6 hours. bah.
i still dont know how i can talk to you on the phone even though i'd already been asleep zzz
the stupid girl texted me all of a sudden and bombed that im booked for the weekends.
my phone running out of moolah already bloody hell. im on a punishment: dad's not topping up for me. zzz.
i resolve to do those friggin history notes tomorrow already. nuff time wasted.
i wonder what time i'd sleep tonight.
i wonder if i'd really get a pug.
helena, im halfway thru your book already. sigh.
PLEASE STOP ALL THE SPAMMING I BEG YOU.

so loud that no one hears your screamings

2009-10-07T21:29:00.002+08:00

i never thought i'd break down as easily as this. i thought i'd had a hold of myself already. whats with stress? no, i dont know at all what im stressing about? i guess its exams. i thought people who used 'fml' were boombos (new word). well, FM(f-ing)L. so there. (im a boombo)
what im trying to say is, I FEEL SCREWED TQ-V-MUCH. and im not gonna mind my language for once. just one night.

i dont need to actually.

1. i have taken it down. i started it, right. i never denied it in the first place. now i've ended it. thats what i think right? i doubt you'll go on thinking about it. well continue if you must i have nothing to do with it. it started with a blog post; now that its gone, i treat it as a done deal. i apologised, im apologising again: IM SORRY. yeah you know im talking about you. whatever. you have no mood to talk to me, dont bother coz like i told you i never had the energy to anyway. your stuff? have it back. i shouldnt regret but im really regretting about whatever happened. sorta wish i never knew you at all. of course, this is a pretty stupid thing to say. back to you about the thanks for the memories thing. goodbye.

2. (dont bother asking what happened im not gonna recite it like a story)

3. whats up with that man. you think im happy staying back everyday like that ah. think again. at least if i stay back and do revision, its better than being distracted by the PHONE the COMP the BED and the TEEVEE. do you seriously think im lying to yall about studying. well yeah i used to be hardworking then i started to slack but now im trying harder than anything else to pick it all up again. here i am trying to brush up on everything and get a grip on things and you're there pushing me down. oops i needa rephrase; you didn't. you were trying to imply that i was lying about studying when im actually out with friends, yes? so im the kind now, in your eyes. yeah i used to be able to study. yeah im the better one at academics out of the three huh? if i can i would tell this straight to yall: i am not your miracle kid; i dont vomit out good grades that the other two cant give you as much. my grades are slipping. i admit that. the big one has music potential and the small one, well he can pretty much do anything. me? HAH fat chance. im trying to tell myself that hey, psychology sounds like nice uh perhaps i can make a shot for it. then the comment passed when i told yall? "eh, ngee ann 9 points and (some other poly) 12 points. you can do it or not." FYI, NO, I DONT HAVE THE CONFIDENCE THAT I CONFIRM CAN DO IT. BUT YES, I AM TRYING. trying is better than not trying, obvs?

small one gets a good grade suddenly and yall praise him to the skies, get him what he wants. i get a good grade (in maths, possibly) and you guys say yeah, keep it up. i know yall are trying to motivvate him. i know yall get him stuff to do that, praise him, whatever. kay YES wi understand. but maybe yall are a tad too used to me getting better marks when i was younger in primary school, and now that when i drop and manage to climb back up again, you're oblivious to it? thanks for that push, people. i appreciate it.

why did i cry through the remaining half of dinner just cause you said that? i neednt be, i neednt be upset or angry. what exactly am i angry about anyway. yeah well obviously i think you dont see im trying hard again to win back your attention. im not trying to say you dont give me what i want btw, im not trying to say yall dont love me. im thankful for that bbq. you said whats most important is that im happy. but in your eyes, i've slipped from being the girl who used to do schoolwork/revise at night to the girl who's on the net every night when you come home. the girl that never stops texting/using the phone, FYI, I DONT EVEN TOUCH THE HOUSE PHONE ANYMORE. not that im trying to say anything but yeah thats why my phone credit's always running low right. touch the house phone and mom nags. finish the credit on my phone and well yeah dad doesnt nag but i know what you're thinking man.

i feel so stupid. i guess someday i can really become stupid for all i care and you guys can start to take more notice of the big one and the small one la. good grades dont count, the behavior's more important, you used to say. now im putting in effort, a little at a time. i know its a little too late but isnt it obvs? well yeah maybe im not pushing hard enough.

but cant you see? i would never have broken down at dinner if i could care more about it. im past caring, dad. im staying back tomorrow to revise like how im just going to do so. im gonna prove it to you la. im gonna take what i want next year, my literature and my art and my business. case closed. you're still my parents i never said i hated you at all. i wonder if you understand me at all sometimes. but i dont feel like opening up to yall anymore. how can i.

woah piang eh what a long piece of wordy shit. sigh. school, here i come tomorrow.

come back to me, its almost easy

2009-10-07T00:19:00.004+08:00

watched sayang sayang j now. i tell you it actually touched me and idk why zzz.
blogger can totally ruin my mood in a matter of minutes.
come on lah be a good girl and upload pictures when i ask you to man. seriously. zzz
on a brighter note, might just finally get some stuff into my rusty brain after so slacking for so long(?) prolly revising in art room tmr, guess thats where i can focus. i think.

im not gonna wait for you anymore you ____ ^^ sigh. who cares if you reply or not huh. i do
oh well. tomorrow will be the same again. am i supposed to look forward t the same ole thing evryday. scrwd scrwd scrwd.

ps/ i think we should be allowed to drive or something lmfao i officially hate mondays and taking public transport home during peak hour. bah. *stamps feet* *sulks* *rolls eye at silliness* *switches off lights* *off to bed*

check this hand cuz im marvellous

2009-10-04T20:10:00.006+08:00

from ikea's. more of intl plaza's tomorrow.

sigh. new week begins tomorrow. think i officially hate mondays

if you want to be my boy, my * for my JOY

2009-10-03T23:58:00.003+08:00

sudden decision or something to go out with this woman again today. this was from the previous pictures.

was practically rolling around when i said the wrong stuff in mac and the kpo guy looked over.
i saw his face. i tell you it was C.L.A.S.S.I.C. his face was like, "wtf is wrong with these girls."

studied, or tried to with danielle and her mom again, same place, only that this time there was less pictures i guess.
posting the previous pictures tomorrow cuz i am f***ed up with blogger. it. is. lagging. shit.

thanks, i guess?
unexpected things just keep happening these days huh doesnt it. wooOoooOoOoOOw :)

E2! english, e maths, chinese, social studies + literature, chem/bio, art (?) + business/poa. hmm.
i dont know, i dont know.

tonight, alone in my room

2009-10-02T21:53:00.004+08:00

^ if he gazes at you like that, HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE HIM

^ i pick flowers for her bag. i m so totally sweet right

stayed till late for art again. i seriously think we're a poor lot. (i hope teacher hasnt found my blog yet)

tiong, with helena and amanda. some stupid woman koped our seats right before my eyes. she still smiled at me. B!TCH

i gt the red envelopes coz i like red. i dont care what the little boy likes.

I GOT POP UP STICKERS FOR MYSELF TOO im tapping on it now cuz its fun.

texts are bombing my phone like i dont know why. im not used to this.

one paper down. four more to go, next week.

you said you're disappointed, yeah i sorta feel awkward too.

i apologised. am i even supposed to? i dont belong in that crowd yeah but i never said i was going to.

im still me zzz what have i done when i merely went.

im sorry, dont be angry. L.

tomorrow we die (':

2009-10-01T21:53:00.004+08:00

tmr's exams liaoz. i tell you i shit ass scared.
stayed late today. zz.
what can i say about tonight? :O
complicated. sigh lets hope i dont get distracted for tmr's paper.
i've decided i'll sleep at 10.30pm tonight. oh shit it its 10.41.
i've decided i'll pack up and wash up and sleep at 11. good enough.

whats that H-word that means to stay away for a while?
whatever. ~~will return on october 16th~~ hehehehehe night GL for tmr,
byebyezzZzZzZZz

clutching your hands, i fall deeper

2009-09-29T23:29:00.002+08:00

cant sleep.

had a dream in my afternoon nap. freaked me out cuz it was more of like i had a dream in mmy dream.
like, i dreamt that this this this thing happened (not a good thing) and i was so, so, so like this.

then i realised, still dreaming, that i was dreaming after all and the thing hadnt happened in the dream at all. it was like a dream in the dream.

i think im only trying to calm myself but its not working. oh well

dont want t let go but it annoying me. i hate falling deeper.

i wonder what you think too. you never say much nowadays. i really want t know how you feel under it all.

stop playing with me. it isnt funny.

another sun-soaked season fades away

2009-09-29T21:03:00.003+08:00

Virgo: Daily Scope - Tuesday, September 29
Your physical energy will push you toward a strong start to the week, thanks to the Aquarius moon. Maybe you'll be a star in gym class or at your team practice. Or, you might just be able to keep going long after everyone else has been worn out by a mental workout one of your teachers gives in a particularly tough class.

I BET THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT MATHS CLASS.
I DID A WHOLE QUESTION BY MYSELF TODAY AND IM PROUD OF IT (not bluffing)

btw the wedding thing just finished.
yes im (sorta) obsessed with the whole idea of a wedding. what the hell.
anyway, homework time. im definitely bucking up cuz i can feel it HAHAHAHAHA

we watched the seasons pull on its own stakes

2009-09-28T22:17:00.003+08:00

i dunno what to do now lei really. everything is misleading.

i guess i can only wait uh.

i listened in maths today. mostly. really.

but im not saying that i understand set notation totally.

stayed in for art (again) till about 5. gwc for late lunch/early dinner with that woman above.

bumped into.......... sigh. pasta was nice. yummmmz.

i sat on a puddle of ants without realising it. ICK imagine having ants up your skirt. definitely not fun.

stop laughing.