mixed feelings

don't understand, i seriously don't.
why you tell me you were having moodswings sia.
when you know pretty well it's perhaps just an excuse and you actually felt pretty fucked up inside.
why can't you just tell me uh?
anyway, now you know that i didn't have th time\phone\anything to tell you right.
for one thing i didn't even know you had your phone back, i thought your mom had it but you were holding on to it somehow.
don't know lah hor, that's not what i'm trying to make the subject now lah any.
it's always miscommunications hor isn't it?
idk how to talk to you recently anyw, told you once & i'll tell you again, drifting means drifting.
now i guess it's drifting no more, now it's drifted, yes? aiyar.

really hope stuff will work out soon someday, i don't want to talk to you and then we'll both be looking very very close on the outside but feeling awkward like fuck on the inside.
don't know.

talk to you soon.