you say i don't care huh? yeah sure wow i don't care! lady, if i didn't, i wouldn't have even fucking BOTHERED talking or going out with you. what the.
we wouldn't even have been FRIENDS! that just goes to show how understanding you are cuz obviously, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME! wow, what a friend.
but then look carefully, it's not that im purposefully trying to pick a fight with you.
you were right about that part, we drift after every outing.
i think im right about that part, we're no longer close.
and i think i might be right about this: we might no longer be close anymore.
woman, you have friends, i have friends.
you want to count anot? obviously you have MORE than me. yeah what the.
i know you probably would like more attention from your friends but see, your friends have THEIR friends too!
you probably think that i don't have enough time for you. sorry to tell you, but i don't have time for ANYTHING! (i take things as they come. if you talk to me, i do likewise. if you xl me, i don't bother to talk to you cuz i don't like being given attitude on. get me? yeah sorry if it's too direct or whatever but i think you need to know how i feel.)
if you bother to understand me you'll see! im not trying to act one pitiful and pathetic cuz well, i don't want to anyway!
i don't have much close friends as you know. that's why i treat them like, better sometimes? idk how to explain. i don't want to explain anyway.
i just hope you see what im getting at. if you don't, that's fine, heck me lah hor.
yeah i know losing a friend's ___.
yeah i remember our stuff, grow up together etc.
isn't it all crap anyway? given the fact that things are like that now, i might rule out the possibility that stuff would return to normal. yeah i don't know now.
i don't know how to talk to you.
im tired of conflicts, i know you're sick of me.
you know what, i actually know EVERYTHING.
i know you don't like me, i've already known for a long long time yeah? last year i think. or this year i can't recall exactly.
i know how you feel about me lah, hot and cold!
that's how we are! if you even bother talking to me, yeah then we're close.
i don't see you most of the time anyway, not even at co because you have your own friends.
oh, and don't even mention that peishan suting xinhui marvin amanda binbin farhana kailing helena sharon whatever else friends i have thing.
you know i treasure each friend.
i don't know why you even want to compare them or whatever you call it, omg i just can't take it!
i need time with other friends just like any other girl. you might say that not spending time with you means not caring/treasuring/treating you as a friend etc whatever shit there is left but hello, you can see the situation, we can't even communicate properly, we can't even talk about stuff anymore, you don't tell me stuff, i admit i don't tell you stuff, how?
how d you expect me to do it? i can't possibly always be the one to think hard and crack brains for thing to say, talking about the weather, chili tomato sauce, school, co, it's not enough, you see?!
i am FUCKING TIRED OF TRYING TO COME UP WITH THINGS TO SAY YOU SEE, SO IM NOT GOING TO TRY ANYMORE, SO THERE.
YOU MIGHT THINK I DON'T CARE, BUT WHAT THE HECK, I WISH I COULD JUST STOP CARING ABOUT EVERYTHING NOW LAH HOR,
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