(at at at at at) at night.

today, you see one long wordy post omg.

today, it's day 'n' n that's stuck in my head. oh, and that v ___ t. swift song.
can't believe i actually wrote the whole song down without stopping and leaving spaces between each word for the whole of maths or something. yup, free period.

i actually owe a lot of apologies.
neway. long day @ school, can't believe they extended wed's curriculum. till bloody TWO.
have one essay and two maths worksheets on hand, i actually have the drive to complete them tonight but first i need to computer-crazy finish first, though there's nothing to computer-crazy about.

in actual fact, i have the driiiiive to do everything now. put you down, put everything down, pick, buck up on my studies and. etc. ya. i remembered what i promised form 'cher during meet-parents and lim say chionh plus dad were there to witness. i can't back out.
(know how hard it is to realise you can't let your teachers down, parents down, friends down?)

kfc with (clique-bin+enabelly & xinhui) for lunch lah. i need to stop eating.
neway. i apologise cuz i was pretty out. im sorry. i fucked up man sorry.
off to P's for my fbts and ended up at tiong with her cuz i needed the toilet and she needed to return a rented disc. ramen girl. i thought was jap but it's angmoh man. guai one.
ended up at her place after that again, trying to do maths. did three or four qns but gave up. got teevee. temptations.
watched, talked about the naggy taiwan show. ahh...
finally let go. i mean really let go. but obviously i picked up from where i let off lah -.-
i thank this girl man. i thought i had to keep it to myself forever. very, very stressful i know.

she ordered no crying so there was no crying. overally it was great.. literally. though a bit hard to actually say it out at times.
was pretty stomach-turned-upside-down though. know that want-to-throw-up-don't-want-to-throw-up feeling? yeah that.

i need to go. thank you baby. sorry, darlings. i love you all man.
i need to buck up.

(toss and turn, i stress my mind/ looking for peace but see, i don't attain)

(what i need for keeps; the silly game we play, now madness to magnet keeps attracting me)

(try to run but see im not that fast, think im first but sure to finish last.)

(hold the phone, solo doe low, on the move, but can't shake the shade)

(the feelings had are through, through, through)

(seemingly alive though undoubtedly blue, blue, blue)

(smokes a clip, then on my way in search of)

(i see your face, you're oh haunting me, my weakness)