i like you a lot, lot, think you're really hot, hot

today's been... slowwwww.

spent some night talking to G and W till like, 4am or something?
last night, with I till like eh, 6am today or something sigh.
phone bombbbbb. i managed 6 hours of sleep today. aren't i super!


keep trying to get my mind on homework but then... failed miserably.
eh, i shall listen to you and learn from you or something k, concentrate on studies or something :)
luv you still, and don't fucking block me lah you. neh.

out real early yesterday. wasted trip to school. cb. :)
(im really glad you didn't chase me out anyhow, thanks. luv ya :))
with eh, D and G and W to vivo's after that but was a great great great party pooper. some tummy thing and i think it's so... goddamn sexed up. :)

pictures aren't up yet, all in like, breasty's cam or something. you whore. i want that smoothie person's picture.



i guess i pretty much told you how i felt. of course, it hurt.
as i lay, trying to be as still as i could, i somehow arrived at the realisation that there was eh.. something beating inside of me; (obviously, what else could it be?)
alas, it's not my heart. it's never my heart anymore, because you ripped it right out. the rhythm going on inside of me that's keeping me alive is nothing more than dead woodwork banging out its monotonous tune.
i realise that never will i function properly again.
i feel scared at the way i saw myself trembling in front of you, i didn't understand what was happening to me. i still don't.
i hope you understand me though, thank you for still letting me in. i love you, i don't really care whether you reciprocate it or not, as long as you know that it's true, im happy and still willing to wait.

im sorry i caused you trouble or something, i love you. :)

you cut me open and i keep bleeding love.