new year resolutions

well you knocked me hard and knocked me awake without doing that much. thank you.

will be here for the next four hours before bed and i really want to do something meaningful apart from watching the countdown from tv later. (-.-)
feeling a little emotional. maybe its got to do with it being the end of the year

ya. i definitely feel like crying now. *am dying for a
reading twin's blog makes me feel like crying because i think what he posted relates to me too (THANK YOU TWIN I LOVE YOU TOO)
this will be another wordy post i think.

ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bombom's blog inspired me to do the same thing. like summarise my whole year
thats pretty meaningful right. okie dokie.

K LETS SEE. (rubs hands)

january:
started talking about percussion outings which never actually materialised. funny how you can plan and get so excited for things that you know is never going to happen.
and i rmb i was still pretty upset about the whole..... thing. yeah some people might know.
got sick. okay pretty small detail.
got hooked on trial games. ok another trivial one
another pretty emotional month i guess. from what i rmb
OH AH JANUARY. pretty good month i should say but good things dont reall last sometimes ahhaha. good memories though so i'll just keep it with me.
(yeah looking back...... hmm.)
(omg ya actually its a lot. hmm.)
oh quarreled w breasty but made up again.
conclusion: not a bad one. sigh.

february:
like the same as january. zz. yeah i mean seriously. valentines day came... and went. that was my first like, valentines together. im not making sense but im rushing this shit thats why
ahhh feb. another of the month. (fck i can just tear looking at the bloody fxcking posts)
so there goes fab feb.

march:
actually, nothing much. another of those months. srry but yeah. started playing pet society from what i see.
my ceiling...
quarreled w breasty again.
was really a bad month but not that bad.

april:
another one of the mnths. aiyar tsk hahahaha
oh april shows me that all the episodes started happening.
detention for the first time in my life heh
SYF and we got bronze even though we expected silver like badly. pretty teary day for all of us.

may:
okay so it stops here. uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
my may 23rd's post stil inspires me.
http://weixiannnnnnnnnn.blogspot.com/2009_05_01_archive.html
upsetting but i got over it hahahahahahaaaaaa see me.

june:
another month.

july:
another month.
i started texting you if i remember correctly.

august:
another month.
still you, on and off.

september:
heh birthday! had a little get-together with all my loves heh. finally dared to get over what i had to. still was you.

october nov december: ~


i lost interest in my own life ahhahaha
kay ten more mins to 2010. i really dont know what to write down for my resolutions.
improve on my life i guess.
i need to study harder too. if i want to apply fr dpa there it goes.
no more distractions hahahahahahahaha omg i finally kan kai le.
no more this and that.

will decide on more when 2010 comes. for now i think im just going to watch the countdown wait for the fireworks pity myself for being so pathetic and cry my heart out and then sleep.




2009 is a pretty upsetting year.
having this kind of end. LOL.
i loved you but i need to forget.