stupid girl, should've known

i need my own silent moment.

1. maths rev ex three (page 84): due on tuesday
2. chinese informal letter: due latest by monday morning
3. chinese file (yellow): due on monday [is there even mother tongue on monday?!]
4. sign forms: PTA, learning journey, TD worksheet: all on monday
5. go through maths (algebra): weekends
6. mom's present: latest by monday
7. ahem.: latest by WEDNESDAY?

finally it's th end of feb. financial crisis-fab feb. stupid :(
hope next week turns out to be better. oh correction, next week sucks down and out already. (yes i already know)
hope th week after week turns out better.

quarreled w mom, i stopped keeping quiet & pretending to understand after such a long time.
finally lost it with the both of them. oh no, i mean all th three of them, maybe even four.
have tolerated enough isn't it, can't they see it, im f-ed up being theirs to control. im not a wall. feelings of a human, my dears? nbknn.
nothing goes in already, i swear one day they'll fucking push me over the edge and not even realise it.
after all, in the end, boys matter more. sons, to be exact.
unwanted. love & care & whatever you're f-ing supposed to give a growing girl huh? where is it? (what have i done to fucking deserve this.)
like i said darling, shouldn't even have had me if they didn't want a girl to give them trouble. that's it, im trouble ain't i.