left school early, wasn't feeling very well hahahahaha. thunder crashed above my head just now omfgah! yeah was afraid of getting struck by lightning so ran back to shelter.
yes i heard of the guy who was struck cuz he had a tongue piercing, so i was worrying for both my ears.
met M in the morning for breakfast yes i didn't have it but yes. :)
hope you like my surprise hon :) luv ya.
walked to school, i swear it's my first time walking up th hill on a weekday. hahahahahaha.
normal lessons etc, gosh i wonder how i managed to pull through science.
jasper argued w teacher wtf wow he's good at rebelling.
pretty no-mooded towards th end of th day idk why too hai. just felt like giving up everything go home sleep! :s
fuck-face -.- know how to play piano big fuck is it. not that i want to anti you lah hor. just f off, what's mine's mine.
miss you sweetheart, where are you. :(
tags:
- suting: hahaha er.. i still don't get what you mean! you mean! it's all th same isn't it :\
- M: where got unglam you pig, it's fab lah. yeah i still got more, in case you next time upset me, i upload all let th world see! :) so you'd better not heh (kidding!) yeah i would ask you if you didn't mention, heh heh heh! lluv ya too, yes refers to th whole heart.
- sinyan: hey there :) yeah kk thanks! cya in school :)
- abby: who ask you never come earlier haha! there were extras but i think it all ended up in someone else's stomach already ;)
- farhana: huh? don't get you idiot :)
- passerby: haha, im alright but thanks anyho. :)
- enabelle: yes exactly! rayner kept insisting it's not porn when i suspected it. stupid. i also thought it's his blog sia, silly me.
- peishan: what lah. so cool lor. thank xinhui for that idea cuz she suggested it. :)
idk what to say cuz idk what to feel. everything makes me feel helpless hopeless doubtful miserable useless depressing bitter sad disappointed down and so on. in short, all the negative things one could possibly feel? nothing's been this tough before, well , not exactly much. so how come things're starting to look bleak like some idiotic shit like that. yes nothing looks like it'll work out anyway, what's the point of finding solutions? ignoring doesn't help unfortunately, i cannot find the right person to talk to becuz nobody understands. yes i think im the only one who understands me becuz idk why ah shit. yeah so my question to myself is why must i feel this way? idk. why must i keep it to myself, why can't i tell someone, why can't i complain to make myself feel better, why must i keep thinking about the same stuff? why must i keep getting frustated about the same things, fret like some pathetic puck about it, lose concentration, lose my mood, lose my everything for it? i feel helpless. is this like some kind of a crazy depression thing? yeah depression's cool i get to sink real low into th dumps and then just die due to over-consumption of sleeping pills or something idiotic like that. i need to stop feeling this way but can you freaking teach me how? why can other people do it but you (i) can't? that barrier... cb.
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